AutisticBelle wrote:
I don't know whether it is related to aspergers, but I'm easily startled as well. It makes me somewhat of a target for "Practical jokes", which is pretty much bullying. For me, its not just sound though; movement is also a hardship. My sister always swerves her car suddenly so that I scream, and if I see a sudden movement out of the corner of my eye I am startled then too.
People stopped doing that to me when they realized my fight or flight response is almost always fight, and that just because I refused to participate in gym class didn't mean I couldn't break bones without trying. Only one teacher ever sided with the other kid, and that was because it was her son and she heard him screaming from another classroom and came running, and really that's understandable, assuming your baby can do no wrong and even if they did protecting them anyway. I mean, I would destroy evidence and murder witnesses to protect the people I care about from getting in trouble, and I knew that was "wrong" in an academic sort of way (my gut told me people I love are more important than others, period), so of course I would side with my bully son and not the kid a foot taller than him who had one of his baby teeth stuck to his fist with blood and spit, who seemed to have no emotions but never got lower than an A+, and who spoke with a seemingly foreign accent, like a terminator or something. I forgave her, but I still fantasized that if he died (preferably from being stung by swarming bees, don't ask me why) I would act distraught and like I missed him so they would let me speak at his funeral, then I'd heckle his dead body until I was pulled away while hysterically laughing and ejected from the premises. I tend to hold grudges. The other teachers said the kids should have known better and anybody would have slugged them for it on reflex alone. I knew this wasn't true since I had seen people not react with violence from jump-scares, but that was fine, they weren't me so I didn't care.
25 Sep 2012, 4:08 pm
