Do you imagine the overall picture of yourself?

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When you look at your own photograph for example don't you find it weird that It's you? Feeling that you're an object, not a person? I know NT's have some kind of "sense" that can recognize the person by his behavior, but we're not able to express ourselves, we are 100% conscious.

Well I don't care how people view me, It's all about how I feel and see things, that's what means being an aspie.

I don't really like seeing pictures or video of myself, but possibly for a different reason. I don't like being reminded of just how bad I present myself to the outside world. Normally, I can sort of live inside my head and not deal with it. In pictures, video or even a mirror I see how bad I am with regards to how I dress or how old I look and the illusion breaks down.

I forget what I look like unless I am looking in a mirror and yes, I find my reflection strange. Especially since it changes so much depending on where I am in relation to the mirror. For photographs, I have a hard time identifying with what I see in the picture as well. Sometimes it's bad enough that I don't recognize myself if my image is small or old.

Um, I think I know who I am in a photo when I see one.

But I do hate myself in pictures. I always think I look different to everyone else; my neck looks stooped forwards, there doesn't seem to be any shades of light and dark on my face so I look like a wooden doll, I'm always pulling a goofy smile, I suddenly appear to have buck teeth in photos unlike otherwise, and my shoulders kind of look square and awkward, and my eyes glow bright red whilst everyone else's doesn't, even if I'm not looking directly at the camera.

Few people say I'm not very photogenic, others say I look perfectly normal and pretty in photos and that it's just my low self-esteem and paranoid thoughts telling me I look crap. Hopefully the former and the latter are both true, and I know not everybody looks perfect in every photo. I do know one person who is always beautiful in every photo. She can pose in whatever way she likes, and can even pull a daft face, but still looks quite perfect. Me, if one muscle is out of place on my stupid face I look like some deformed alien in the photo.