The effect it has on me ranges from not at all to the profound. When going through some of the deepest depressions I have had I started listening to depressing music that only made it worse. The first time I did this was at the end of High School. I started an obsession with the music of Simon and Garfunkle, a 1960's folk/rock duo known for their depressing songs and somewhat intellectual lyrics. Eventually, I had to stop listening to it because I recognized how badly it was affecting me. Fast forwards ten years to my next major depression and what do I start listening to? The Smashing Pumpkins. They made Simon and Garfunkle look happy by comparison. The hurt this time was a girl who played with my heart with no intention of ever going anywhere with it. I worked with her and so I could not get away from the strong feelings that had been created. I nearly committed suicide from the games she played and my own inability to judge real attraction from fake. It was the first time I had allowed myself to think someone liked me that way and it turned out to all be just a nasty game played for the pleasure of a twisted, evil b*tch. It forever damaged my ability to trust and to believe that I could be loved. I have tired again, but both times I have turned out to be people I thought liked me but blew me off when I made an attempt. Each time it's the same situation with someone at work that others tell me to go for because they think the person likes me but the reality is the opposite of what I have been led to believe.
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Uncertain of diagnosis, either ADHD or Aspergers.
Aspie quiz: 143/200 AS, 81/200 NT; AQ 43; "eyes" 17/39, EQ/SQ 21/51 BAPQ: Autistic/BAP- You scored 92 aloof, 111 rigid and 103 pragmatic