Movies/Music: Something I miss

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This is not strictly about movies and music, but about certain kinds of repetition I don't do as often as I used to do.

Over the past several years, I've stopped watching my favorite movies over and over again and listening to my favorite music over and over again.

This isn't really so much a shift in my desire or need to do such things, but a symptom of the increasing disorganization in my life. My CDs and DVDs are somewhat scattered and I am not even sure where some of them are. Some of my movies were on VHS and I have no way to play them (and no idea where the tapes are).

Every now and then I go on youtube and play stuff (my favorite being The Crow soundtrack, usually The Cure's "Burn") but for various reasons I don't do that very often.

Does anyone else find themselves losing habits unwillingly?

I think I can relate to this. I'm going through some stuff right now (I made a post about it in the members discussion section and I don't think anyone knows its there), and it's like my free time indulgences have become meager somehow.

I spend what little time I have surfing scenes and videos on YouTube (which is the equivalent of a homeless guy watching television through a store window), then I check Facebook, then i check in here. That's it. I haven watched How to Train Your Dragon in 3 months; I'm not doing any of the when-I'm-alone stuff that I used to enjoy.

Stress overload? Depression? I just don't know, but I feel your pain, if you want to call it that.

Yeah, I think depression plays a role. It started to get bad for my back in 2004-2005, which was when my depression was at its worst (as in, accompanied by mild psychosis). I spent more time distracting myself from everything than indulging in my favorite things.

I'll check the members' forum for your post.

I have totally felt that way when I went on medication years ago. When I went on it I noticed a weird change in my habits. For some reason music sounded different movies felt different. almost all my previous habits and behaviours changed. good and bad. Been off the medication for years and am back to "normal". Maybe its a "phase"? sorry I couldnt be more helpful.

You've been helpful enough. It's good to know that other people encounter this and it's not just me.

Being on medication is when I really started to notice and question it.

Listening to music always evokes certain memories (and emotions) in me. It usually brings me back to the time when I first heard that particular song or album.

Thus, for example, some System of a Down songs bring me back to my second year in college - the best year. It all comes back as strong and vivid as if it happened yesterday. Sometimes I even start feeling the same way I did back then, while listening to that song for the first time.

Once I found a dust-covered CD in the player - and I remembered that I listened to it all the time a few months ago... and then I suddenly stopped. Didn't even bother to take it out of the player. And I have no idea why...

I know how you feel.

Johnny Depp movies and My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic are my biggest special interests, but I rarely ever watch them.

As my post history can attest, I go through periods of time every couple of weeks or so when I don't feel so passionate about them, only to return to them later. My mom often says that my mind "goes in circles".

It makes sense that I would not want to watch them when my level of passion hits a low point, but the thing is, I don't feel the need to watch them even when I do feel passionate about them. I'm way behind on My Little Pony episodes, and I don't even know how long it's been since I've last seen my favorite Johnny Depp movies.

I think that the reason could be that I used to watch the show/movies so much that I feel like I know the characters and story well enough that I don't have to watch them anymore in order to enjoy them, since the characters are part of my imaginary world and I can think up new scenarios for them and talk to them anytime. Maybe I like what I come up with in my head more than what I see onscreen...?

Or I could be developing depression, which I have suspected for months, since my mind "going in circles" (as my mom puts it) has been a source of great emotional disturbance for me, to the point of wanting to self-harm over it.

Or maybe it's a combination of the two. I really don't know.