XFilesGeek wrote:
I'm good at several things, but it doesn't negate the fact I have a disability.
I can see "patterns" to art and literature that most people don't believe are there. My hunch is that it has to do with what's pleasing and relate-able to the primate brain, and that "art" isn't as subjective as we tend to think.
Of course, I get straight As, while the doubters get Bs and Cs.
It's good to see that someone is saying it.
Yes, I'm good at patterns. I also see how people can think they see patterns in everything that provides a 'link' between two pieces of information. Like how a full moon falls around the same date as a woman's period. There's a pattern but no link connecting those two things together, i.e it's not the moon that gives the woman her period and it doesn't send people insane.
I have horrifically bad sensory issues. I need to be medicated, have ear plugs constantly in my ears and wear sunglasses so I don't get migraines. I still have a crippling fear of change. I have high anxiety and less of social anxiety, but more feeling I'm not safe around certain people. I couldn't give carp if they thought I was ugly, stupid, annoying, rude etc - I just don't want them to kill me.
I've never had a job. I worry I'll lose my pension and have to struggle with getting work again and not be able to finish my novel.
My future is an occasional worry.
Though I have strengths, I am still impaired. How amazing is the human brain? To accommodate for us like this. With my ADHD I never experience writer's block. With autism I am never alone, I'm a great mimicker and most importantly: patterns are fun.
I see the no. 27 everywhere. Today my mum said she paid a painter $350 and asked for some money. When I replied to her I paid some money it was 3:50pm. I know it coincidence but it still gives me a chuckle or depending on my current state of mind, freaks me out.