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laserwater
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17 Oct 2012, 7:19 pm

I feel like I am somewhere between being NT and ASD, but I am unsure and curious about other people's thoughts. I have been diagnosed with OCD and Sensory Processing Disorder, and mainly have strange tactile and vestibular senses. I also have trouble understanding lists of verbal commands. Just to be clear I know I would still need a formal Dx for it to really count, but I wonder how relatable I am to you all.

I have a hard time picking up on sarcasm and often ask people if something they said was sarcastic or not. I also have trouble understanding/saying expressions/idioms, though not all figurative language. I have a basic idea of what various expressions mean, but often have to google them, as well as basic sentences because they can be too general for me to be sure of their meaning. I've noticed also strangely that it's hard to pick up on people's intents when they are joking, but mainly on the internet.

I've also been very introverted and I have a hard time truly enjoying most people, though I'm not against the idea of making friends. I don't really know what to talk about with people usually in many situations. I also dislike eye contact though I don't entirely avoid it so as not to upset people. I get obsessed with things, but not to the point of learning a ton of information on them, except for linguistics, because I usually have trouble focusing. Strange obsessions as well maybe, such as slugs and otters, 4 spatial dimensions, and AI. I will listen to the same songs over and over daily, in some cases for years. Some of them I even learn in the other languages they have become dubbed in.

I stim as well. Playing with objects in my hands, walking in circles when other people aren't around (except sometimes family), and can't stay seated for more than 2 minutes easily except in school for some reason. I've always been really scared to answer the phone unless I know exactly who is calling me, and I have trouble making phone calls. I have to schedule when and what to eat, otherwise I won't eat enough. And I hate unexpected changes to my general daily/weekly plans or environment. I never manage to remember to introduce myself, and people actually seem to get pissed about it >.<

I guess the reason I have so much doubt is that it seems most people with ASD have things worse. And having another Dx just seems... I don't know. And my SPD would overlap some symptoms anyway. Most people just think I'm a bit quirky, but normal. And I think I can still understand most body language, which makes me wonder if I could really have ASD...

So sorry for the wall of text.


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17 Oct 2012, 7:53 pm

Remember that every case of ASD is different. You may have a very mild case, but it sounds like you have it. WrongPlanet members' opinions are not a tool for official Dx, but I think they can be fairly helpful.

I would go and see a psychologist or counselor if you're willing. Best wishes.



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18 Oct 2012, 12:26 pm

You can decide for yourself whether or not you want or need an official diagnosis. No matter what, you are welcome here!


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18 Oct 2012, 12:31 pm

Thanks very much for the replies :) It is appreciated

Out of curiosity, what benefits would there be to seeking a diagnosis? Any disadvantages?
I've heard for some reason it makes it difficult for people to get a job if they have an official Dx o.O


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18 Oct 2012, 12:59 pm

laserwater wrote:
Thanks very much for the replies :) It is appreciated

Out of curiosity, what benefits would there be to seeking a diagnosis? Any disadvantages?
I've heard for some reason it makes it difficult for people to get a job if they have an official Dx o.O


The benefit is that it makes it easier to get certain types of public assistance and/or dispensation in educational situations. The negative is that it will make it harder to find employment as certain companies will not hire someone on the spectrum because they fear that they will be more expensive and difficult to deal with. For example, I deliver pizza. While it is not a particularly good job, it does pay my bills. However, if I had a formal Dx and disclosed it to my employer when I was being hired, they would see me as a potential problem since people who are autistic spectrum are not seen as being good at customer service. Therefore, my application would be rejected and I would be denied the job. The reality is that I do excellent customer service and tend to be able to deal with complaints in a dispassionate manner rather than getting too upset. I'm also the top grossing driver at my location. However, with a formal Dx, I would never have been given that chance.


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18 Oct 2012, 1:30 pm

Sometimes, you have to pay more for less insurance, too. :roll:

The advantages are:
1. Self-validation
2. Getting accommodations, therapy, medication, etc. Whatever you need "officially" to live better.
3. Participating in research.


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18 Oct 2012, 2:06 pm

Okay, makes sense. Thanks to you both!


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18 Oct 2012, 2:11 pm

The best of both worlds would be a private and confidential Dx that stays off your medical records. That way, you have the papers stating your disability if you ever need them but they are exceedingly difficult to discover for those researching you to hire you. You would have to pay for it out of pocket, but in the long run it may well be cheaper than getting it done under insurance "on the record".


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18 Oct 2012, 2:22 pm

I'll keep that in mind.

For a good month or so, I thought that yes, something was strange about me, but I had a hard time believing I could have Asperger's.
But the more I read posts on this forum, the more I find myself relating to other people, and it's slowly changing my opinion, though I still think it is mild in my case if anything. I will probably choose not to get a formal Dx unless I unexpectedly need therapy for something else again in the future. But the information is nice to know.


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