The source of all my anxiety

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These, for example, are a recent bunch of thoughts that highlight exactly where everything's coming from: "I just took 5-HTP? How could I not remember *BEFORE TAKING IT* that it could potentially interact with the DXM I had before?! OMFG serotonin syndrome! No one nearby I can contact, I will have a heart attack all on my own! Only option is emergency... but I can't call it if it's only a panic attack... IS IT ONLY A PANIC ATTACK? NO IDEA!! !"

I never got this when I lived in a hostel in which I could get some form of human contact, albeit professional, or at least when I lived in the town's center where a medical center was within walking distance. See my problem? Those... bastards, just left me here both in the middle of nowhere and everywhere. If I run screaming in the middle of the street to wake everyone up because my flat is on fire or something the only thing that will happen is my being hit by a truck. Not only am I all alone, I'm mercilessly ravaged by this world.

Without expecting you to be too specific, may I ask roughly which part of the UK you're in? How urban/rural are you?

It's urban, practically a city. Except that nothing is walking distance still... so I'm screwed from all sides.

What are your options to get in a situation to be closer to other people?

No options at all from the looks of it, unless I wouldn't mind sharing with complete strangers, but that wouldn't make sense in relation to anxiety.