Imagined Lecturing

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There was a related thread about this but I'm unable to find it now. – Very often, daily, several times a day, I find myself like lecturing in my mind on diverse subjects to an imagined audience. In fact, I don't really imagine the audience, I just see and hear me delivering a speech or something. I don't hear or otherwise receive particular questions, I give those lectures spontaneously, like being invited to do so. Wierd thing is that I somehow observe myself from behind, visualizing the other me speaking.

Also, when watching TV especially if it is an interesting film or documentary (I never watch reality TV), I tend to insert myself into the story and start to talk with (or to) the other characters. I don't identify myself as any one of them, I kind of add myself as an extra person in the current story, again like being invited to appear.

I'm a diagnosed aspie since 2002, but ten years ago this kind of behavior didn't come up in the conversations between me and the team who gave me the diagnosis. It was there, sure enough, but I didn't mention it because I thought it wasn't relevant. And they didn't ask, for that matter.

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Hmm, I kind of interpreted that differently to what you meant.

I actually thought you meant imagining other people lecturing you, because often I have that. Like yesterday when I was on a course, I was so shy that I didn't talk at all in group discussions because I didn't know any of the people, and then afterwards I imagined the others in the group lecturing to each other about me going, ''tsk, that girl in our group didn't do anything, did she? She just sat there....''

I find myself worrying about that a lot.

I dunno what your thinkin, I've done that since I was born. I'm pretty positive it's normal behavior. Your just fantasizing my friend. Although I've found that certain types of fantasizing do not let those events come to pass. It's really weird. Like whatever you fantasized about, reality will choose the definite opposite for you. I eventually noticed that when I imagined certain things of varying circumstance, in every angle, reality would find every other angle to go around it and would choose the ultimate outlier. It's kinda freaky, but I'm wondering if it's because our brain might be evaluating situations and only letting itself imagine the improbable. But I'm not too positive on that either, because I use it to get my way a lot.

Ever since I learned to talk in my head, I have been talking in my head to practice the things that I need to say to other people later. It helps a lot. My speaking is much bester than before I learned to talk in my head.

Oh yes, I do this, though for me it will usually be an audience of one, an attentive, helpful person.

I do that too! I never speak out loud because my words become jumbled, but in my head I'm completely clear and insightful. I talk about many topics, commonly things I like and am currently studying. Sometimes I imagine talking about my entire life to date. It's very interesting.

I thought I was the only one to do that. I talk internally and verbally.

People probably think I'm crazy!

Yes, I forgot to say above that I also do a whole lot of verbal talk to my audience, with low voice, almost whispering. I try to hide it if other people are around and I do have some control over it. But I miss it. When I'm alone I start it, voluntarily. I don't feel being compelled to it. – Frankly, I cannot absolutely say if it is totally voluntary or not, but because the whole thing is not at all unpleasant I'm inclined to think it is.

I do it all the time.

And I imagine people listening to me.

I also imagine I'm being interviewed for a documentary and that I can say whatever I want and how I want.

It's really nice.