Help! My psychologist has warned me away from ending special interests like I did earlier this year by mistake and am still suffering for it, and away from forcing myself to do things that are related if I don't want to do them but now I'm confused. On Saturday out of nowhere one of the two stories I've been writing- the one I was enjoying the most felt like a task. And I don't know what's happening to me! I don't know if my lack of interest n my writing is because the interest is fading and I should leave it alone or if its because of SAD (seasonal affective disorder) which my mum thinks I get. I have some of the other symptoms like I'm suddenly really tiered all the time an I feel sort of sick when I eat, I've got no interest in food.
The difficult bit is I still have some interest and still get a buzz from thinking about my interest and (stupid as it is) things I would include in my writing. I'm so stuck! I don't feel like I've totally lost interest in everything else, and I'm starting to get a bit scared, after what I did to myself with ending an interest which wasn't ready to end I'm really easily upset when one does end. I just really need to know what's causing this, when I pick up something to write I get this strange mix of feelings, like lethargy and guilt and sadness all rolled into one. And sometimes, like last night I get a spurt of interest related energy and start doing something only to put it down and them an hour later not care about it at all anymore.
Is this a fading interest or is it depression? Please help!
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~Pixie~
06 Dec 2012, 2:57 am
