Wrong Personality

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The website is called wrong planet but has anyone else ever felt like an alien in their own personality?

Being myself makes me feel like a stranger to myself. My own personality just doesn't seem to fit me. For some reason it seems like the only way I could truly feel like myself is if I were a different person than I am now.

Me isn't me. I am me and therefore I am not me because me isn't me. Being me makes me feel like someone I'm not supposed to be.

I know it's a little weird and it doesn't make logical sense but it's an irrational feeling I have that I can't get rid of just by reminding myself that it is ridiculous.


Anyone else share this irrational feeling?

I feel like this sometimes. I just know something is missing or out of place. Maybe that something is me. This world and this body is not where I'm supposed to be.

Sometimes I joke that when I die, I will wake up in an alien spaceship and there will be a "Welcome Back" party waiting for me... then they'll download from my mind all the information I've gathered about Earth and humanity because my entire life has been an undercover reconnaissance mission

Not sure if I feel quite the same but I think many of us have this personality duality thing going on - I know I do. How I am and act in public is not the same as how I am and feel when alone.

I've had to learn how to be around people in a way that "works" so that I can blend in and function. To borrow a phrase from another on the autism spectrum - I "pretend to be normal".

My biggest struggle is how much to be myself versus how much to be my "modified" self.

I could write pages and pages on this topic but I will leave it at that. I have no doubt others will comment.

Ehm... no.
I don't believe there is something I'm supposed to be. I am what I am and nothing else - and how could that possibly be different?

Now if you'd asked about feeling that I have not achieved what I should have achieved, I'd say yes.

When I'm around other people and attempting to fit in, I feel this way. I feel like I sacrifice a big part of myself in order to occasionally appear normal around others. It's a very depressing, empty feeling.

But when I'm alone, or with a very select few who understand and accept me, I am fine.

I feel this way as well. Being older, I've for so many years pretended to be someone to be liked that I lost who I really was. Once I realized that who I am was buried under layers of who I was supposed to be, quite a mess surfaced. Now it's not any different but I choose to be someone else for others and when I'm alone I'm myself. The closest I get to being myself around someone else is with my husband.

I think it's okay to feel this way because in a lot of respects society does expect a front to be social. Everyone maintains a front to one degree or another. Their "false self" is shown to world while their "real self" is known to themselves.

I like my personality, and so do many other people. Its not perfect, but its a good enough personality, like most autitics