soulburner wrote:
do you tend to think about the past alot? if so, what do you think about?
I used to.
I am a pacifist, and NT children will pick on someone that will not fight back at all. The occasional times I did fight back stopped the people causing me grief, but also left me feeling less of a person.
I used to re-live the bullying and mistreatment and could not get over it, it was consuming me in a cloud of injustice.
On fathers day 2009, I suffered a near fatal concussion, that left me with a permanent non-detrimental brain damage.
I have amnesia, my perceptions have changed a lot, and I rely on trust. When I woke up, everyone looked like they were glowing with health, it was quite uplifting. However I didn't recognise people, everyone looked a little different, like looking at a very close twin (my own reflection included). People, still to this day, look different. There are a lot of other odd things, but they are for another time.
More relevant , I forgot a lot of things, and there are a lot more things that I don't know I've forgotten. One of the things that has gone is the feelings of injustice, I remember some of the bullies attacks, but they no longer bother me.
A bitter sweet turn of events.