Sadness and hopeless then elated?

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This has started to bug me alongside other problems! I can spend a good time feeling really really down and then I just suddenly spark and feel slightly elated for a little while. Yesterday I went between the two at least twice- I think because I start school again in a few hours and that is a huge emotional scar! I don't like this at all! I want to find out why I have to just have bursts of interest and why I can have a week of brilliance and then fall into nothing! I fin when I have no special interest I have no other interests either. I'm trying to get my head back under my control and enjoy reading again. Small steps but I feel so frustrated with the rest. I'm back into the school pattern of getting up and feeling emotionally numb, then have a period of elation and happiness during the day then go back. I'm not losing the special interest because my heart still leeps at things related- a tv question which had C.S standing for Charles Stanley in C.S.Lewis- is there a way I can encourage other hobbies to cover the other things, is there a way I can make myself happier during the day- it feels such a huge waste to sleep at night when it's the time I'm happiest. Argh!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyclothymia

I experienced that a lot at your age and the only thing that I could do was ride it out.

I can also relate. Most especially when I was in that age range. I think part of what you're dealing with is depression; losing your interest in things you normally enjoy, feeling 'numb'. For me, AS tends to interact with my depression in contradictory ways. I need routine to feel stable but depression makes me break my routine which causes me anxiety and stress so I throw myself into my interest (reading fiction novels) 100% as a coping measure, if it works successfully as coping mechanism (frequently it doesn't) I can be especially focused and get the most enjoyment possible from reading, can shut out the whole outside world for hours sometimes. It feels good. But then depression comes crashing back in.

Have you ever spoken to your parents/doctor about possibly trying meds? Disregard if you already take them or don't want to go that route. Non medicinal thing to try is regular exercise. Exercise does help, although with depression it can be excruciatingly difficult to get started on that.

Meh.
I suppress and / or control my emotions most of the time... precisely because of things like this. Can't have emotions screwing with my judgement.

This also happen to me.
In my opinion, I (or we) feel happy when others are in negative mood (angry, sad, annoyed, depressed).
This weird happiness happen by others, why don't it happen by myself ( or ourselves).
Sometime, I prefer depression rather than this weird happiness.