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Hello everyone,
sorry for my poor english but i'm not a native speeker. I have few questions about Asperger Syndrome.
I read about AS two months ago when I googled few tags like a feeling lonely, problems with others people, higher IQ than average and others. I did it cause I had then and I have now a lot of problems.
First, I have always been a individuality. When I was a kid I hardly never played with my youngers brothers (two and four years yonger) and I dont have many friends. Now its similar. I am almost not being in touch with anybody, except my girlfriend. But with her I have problems too. We are often arguing. Causes are related to my behaviour, i am not realizing i do many things ex. speak too loud or always correct others people, don't want going out or doing things with hard non elastic rules or scheme. She often tells that im insane but she loves me. I see its hard to her to be with me.
When this problems starts being more frequent I read about AS and do 4-5 tests in Polish, its a little but I always get a high score, over the score that point at AS.
I always have problems with other. When I was teen I had two suicidal tries, probably I feel lonely and I don't know nobodys undestand me. I was going to psychiatrist but It don't help me much. They want to send me into mental hospital but my parents dont want it.
I am scare of crowds, I panic then. It's is terrible when I walk alone in ex. shop centre.
Something I feel like have I don't have feelings or I want to be alone but with somebody next to me. More often just before go to sleep.
In school I was always doing well. I was always the best in class and now I'm studying law. But my classmates rather dont like me. I was a kind of nerd. I think is cause my school scores but I'm not sure. I dont get along with other people very well. I am interested in many things, especially statistics, football. I love search informations and observing others but I dont like talk with them. I love math and I miss it.
When something changes around me I feel embarrassed. I changed my school every three years. When I was doing it I have problems with my health, neurological caused.
Sorry for problem, it is possible I have AS?
Others think Im rude sometimes, and my girlfriend is sometimes crying like my mother. Cause of my behave, want to relax.
Could you help me?

You do sound as if you have many Asperger's traits and behaviours.

Have you spoken to your doctor about getting an assessment for Asperger's? I don't know whether you have specialists in Asperger's in Poland, but it would be far better to go to an expert in the field, rather than a general psychologist or psychiatrist. If the facilities for the assessment aren't available, do you have any rights to get assessed in another European country (that would be recognised by your own country)?

I was going to psychiatrist about a one year ago, it was university professor but I fear mental hospital (in Poland its not a good places) month before my Middle School finishing exams.
Now I don't have any chance to get any help. It cost to much (about 50 dollars one visit in poland its very much) for my parents.
My first psychiatrist thought I have a schizophrenia, but I can live in society. I don't have any help when I was yonger cause when you do well in school you are rather normal.
On Asperger subject I get accidentaly.
Thanks for help. Sometimes I would tak about my problems, but everybody around tells it my scares and everything is ok. I dont know to do

If you check this link:

http://ec.europa.eu/health-eu/news/stre ... der_en.htm

you might find out whether you are able to come to the UK for an assessment. Our NHS is already under great strain financially, because our government seems to have very lax immigration laws at the moment, and foreigners are taking advantage of it, so why shouldn't you, while the situation exists.

You don't say your age, but you say that your parents cannot afford to pay in your own country, does this mean you are not an adult yet?

Do your parents support you in getting assessed?

If you had schizophrenia you would also have delusions, so if you don't have those then I would be surprised to hear a psychiatrist suggest schizophrenia to you.

As one who got a diagnosis, ask yourself: what do you want out of a diagnosis? Can you get any useful help where you live?

If you cannot, then do not bother with a diagnosis. Its not gonna change anything, you're still gonna be who you are and still be in the same situation you are now.

I'm adult but my parents support me cause I'm studying. I am not working yet but I have 200 pounds per month scholarship (I dont know is it a good word). It is enough for one month living in 400 km away from home. But im not independent. I dont have delusions but have anxiety states (in stressing situations)
In holiday im probably will go to work in UK cause I need.money for studies.

I dont know what I expecting about diagnosis. I cant stand my brothers saying that I'm idiot or insane. Im looking for help.

Some people need a formal diagnosis for practical reasons, like eligibility some therapy or program or for disability income (welfare).
But if you’re high-functioning, you’re better off WITHOUT a formal diagnosis.

There's nothing they can do for you anyway. At this (adult) level, psychiatrists and therapists are worthless.
It’s like – you go in complaining about your appendix and the guy says, “I don’t know anything about that, so let’s do your tonsils.”)
They say that Autism experts exist, but I haven’t seen one. I think they’re like unicorns.
You are right to fear mental hospitals. They’re all bad, everywhere. They can’t help you.

Once I figured it out, a self-diagnosis was all I needed. It helps me to make sense of the world.
Using the word “Asperger’s” or “Autism” does NOT help to explain myself to other people who don’t want to know.
If anything, the label makes things worse. So I mostly keep it to myself.
I’ll describe a specific issue if it seems relevant, like non-verbal communication or my flat affect,
but there’s no need to mention Asperger’s. It only confuses people.

And by the way, your English is good.

I dont need a formal diagnosis. In future I want be a lawyer and this label rather dont help me.
I am asking cause I want it to know for myself.
I tell about AS my girlfriend and this was not a good idea. She thinks I dont have any problem and she is scared of future and other things. Scare is more powerfull cause my father is have psychic problems. My mom even now tell he behaves like a kid an he is immature. And he cannot describe his feelings.
Thanks but my English is not as good as I want.

Sorry for post under post. I have a question. It is normal I behave worse when I'm stressed or embarrassed? I mean I can't stop irritatting traits then it's harder.

I wouldn't bother with an official diagnosis. If you are in a country where it provides some legal protection from discrimination, it could be worth it, but I don't think Poland is one of those places. Schizophrenia is a common misdiagnosis given by doctors who don't know anything about Autism, and that is a label that is probably not in your best interest to have in your part of the world. Previous posters are right, Asperger's is a neurological diagnosis and not a psychological problem, so treatments for adults are minimally effective, since it's just the way you are. It would be like seeing a psych doctor for blindness, he can probably help one come to terms with being blind and find coping strategies, but he can't fix the original problem. You can find lots of resources for dealing with the symptoms online, and in forums like this one. There are psychologists who specialize in autism (I'm seeing one), but all he's doing is giving me ways to work around my symptoms and trying to help me accept AS as part of who I am. That's something you can learn on your own if you really work at it.

To answer your question, yes, it is very common for AS symptoms to worsen under stress, when you are tired, and when there has been too much sensory stimulation like noise or bright lights or a great deal of social interaction.

Thanks it's very helpful. Sometimes I feel I can't deal with problems. Is this any way to make other people's lifes with me easier?
I rather accept myself. And I discovered many ways to cope with meeting other people. I learning they habits and behaviours so I can realize what they feeling, but not the first time and not when it's unknown reaction. It's weird.

Tapping the table or looking in somebody's mouth while I'm talking is a AS traits?
In Poland I dont have any possible help from government. Ex. in Polish schools kids with ADHD often are judged as disobedient or rude, nobody want to understand. This problems are more frequent in eastern Poland, where I came from.