Can anyone relate to this?
1) Pacing up and down constently around to think without noticing it lost in thought.
2) Sometimes walking around an object the same way over and over.
3) Wearing the same type of clothes (hoodies and jeans most of the time)and shoes (i probably wear between 1 to 2 pairs of shoes i switch occasionaly between each pair but at the end of the day i feel confortable in them i cant explain exactly what i mean.
4) focusing on something so hard that if somebody where to distract you that you would instantly shout at them or get angry very fast.
5) Randomly having racing thoughts in your head and being able to imagine places secenarios ideas and making up stories in your head.
6) When listening to music gives such a deep meaning to you that it is worthless to try and explain to anybody else who tries to understand you. It is like the music itself is deeply connecting with your soul and you just want to "feel" the music moving through your body with every change of beat from high to low every unique sound. I sometimes dont even listen to the whole song i just fast forward to most parts of the song that have that unique sound at that specific moment (hard to explain).
7) Being very resistant to parents and school (school was a nightmare for me no friends due to me being "strange").
Also its weird when you know what your trying to say but it is a struggle to express it through words.
9) Talking to yourself constantly think about life philosophy make up my own observations therioes (pretty fun to do sometimes)
10) social awkwardness people call you a freak, moron, guillable, ret*d.
11) Always thought i was different i always thought to myself why a certain joke was not funny, why certain people would cry over something as petty arguements i never understood it social interaction. like what the point of marriage is etc
12) I laugh sometimes when i should be crying it feels like i can never cry i find things that are not supposed to be funny to be just the opposite.
13) I watch cartoons everyday play video games obssessed with it i can concentrate on the things im interested on for very long (sometimes i just zone out i dont have to "try" to concentrate it just have happens and its intense sometimes i can spend hours and hours without realising it)
14) When i am talking to someone i feel comfortable talking about what im interested in which is very small ie(games,card games, chess etc) but without realising people call me self centered but it was never been my intention to be it is just natural for me ( hard to explain)
15) i cant lie and any women who is nice to me and friendly i instantly get attached to almost overprotective of them as if i need them and i cant let go of them but on the other hand it seems like i dont really pay attention to them or care about them when i in actual fact do. Relationships have been bad because of this i.e complaints of obsessiveness being clingy but then sometimes i can totally forget and not care sometimes. Always believing that everyone is good and taking everything seriously (this has been a downfall) (hard to explain )
16)if someone touches you on the shoulder you freak out and panic.
i.e number 15 its very hard to rellate emotionally and to communicate with another person even though i dont really know what they are feeling i just do thing robotically im not
16) you cant get to the point always long winded sentences always have to talk from start to finish with every detail.
17) when easily fustrated you can get very pissed sometimes very angry sometimes leading to violent outbursts
18) very impulsive distracted easily being bored
19)Not very good with hand eye movements and falls alot clumsy.
20)had to do speech and therapy classes when i was younger
21) cant show emotion very well i can only laugh and thats it when someone is sad i dont react approprialty sometimes i have a straight face most of the time.
22. i get confused very easily
23. Cant actually think in words every minute songs are playing in my head
can anyone relate to any of this
24. Cant sleep properly sometimes.
25. I have irrational fears which would take me a while to get over i.e before i watch a film i would always ask my mom if there are any ghosts in them i would cover eyes if i see a ghost randomly pop up from nowhere. (ghosts from african films) Only now at 19 im kind of getting over this fear.. Or if i see something that does not fit with the atmosphere of what im seeing i.e i am seeing a 2d sprite and right next to it is a 3D photocopy of a giant chicken with one leg It took me alot of time to get over for the first 2 months i got scared of live chickens because it didnt make sense.
26. Im obsessed with anime and manga. ( some still scare me to this day it would take me quite a while to get over it)
27. I laugh to myself most of the time in a crowd full of people or if it is quite i have this urge to start shouting out loud like scream or if an image pops into my head that either scary or funny i just react.
28.Sometimes its like i get lost between reality and imagination sometimes i constantly have to tell myself that it is an illusion but i cant ( this happens once in a blue moon)
24. I have this period ( this one you have to know what i mean by this) i have this phase i go through where i am very happy and excited it seems as if im going to explode for example i would sit on my chair and suddenly i need to walk up and down and start laughing. Once it starts it will take a few days to settle down (made much worse by sugar or any stimulant)
25. People tell me im immature which is most likely true i find kids more enjoyable because there is no socializing involved just playing imagining fun games (hard to explain)
26. When im in a social situation i dont really say much unless its based around poker , mahjong anime manga cartoons chess games etc when i talk about them i cant stop talking lol its like a dam that has burst open and i talk so much about my interests im not really talking to the person there. (im not even aware most of the time)
Last edited by kogie on 07 Mar 2013, 4:42 am, edited 2 times in total.
Let me see...
Pacing around just thinking about stuff, that's almost a hobby of mind.
I wear one pair of shoes for everyday of the week except Sunday which requires church shoes.
I have racing thoughts in my head and like coming up with stories. Today I came up with three episodes to a computer animated you tube series that will never air.
Constantly talking to myself in my head and making up theories.
Know what I'm trying to say, but can't express it in words.
obsessed with video-games.
I do not feel comfortable talking about what I'm interested ion because I am interested in insects and most others aren't.
Difficulty lying.
Don't like touching.
I don't know if I would be clingy in a relationship because I've never been in a relationship. I imagine that I would be though because I have little self-esteem.
Easily distracted
Get confused easily
Can't show emotion well
Music constantly playing in head (little talks by Monsters and Men just popped in)
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I can relate to most of that, but not to such extremes for most of it. Pretty well every single one of those things you listed are text book AS/ASD traits, so chances are that almost everyone here will relate to some/most of them.
6) When listening to music gives such a deep meaning to you that it is worthless to try and explain to anybody else who tries to understand you. It is like the music itself is deeply connecting with your soul and you just want to "feel" the music moving through your body with every change of beat from high to low every unique sound. I sometimes dont even listen to the whole song i just fast forward to most parts of the song that have that unique sound at that specific moment (hard to explain).
But this is the one I wanted to comment on, and I bet there are many of us that can really relate to this - and I think it's awesome. There are a few songs that evoke such feelings in me, too. Sometimes it's due to memories they bring up, or thoughts of friends/family. But I get the whole being lost in the music & sound thing.
I read recently that as far as the biggest nerds in the world of science can figure out so far, that sound is probably the original form of energy vibrations in the known universe. It's theorized that all energy, matter, dark matter etc has evolved from sound waves. That is super cool, and it helps make sense of your description of feeling music right through your body & soul, and why people (and other animals/plants etc) react to sounds and music the way that we do.
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Yes, to most of the list.
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I lifted this from Wikipedia, but there are interesting parallels...
Hindus believe that as creation began, the divine, all-encompassing consciousness took the form of the first and original vibration manifesting as sound "OM".[3] Before creation began it was "Shunyākāsha", the emptiness or the void. Shunyākāsha, meaning literally "no sky", is more than nothingness, because everything then existed in a latent state of potentiality. The vibration of "OM" symbolizes the manifestation of God in form ("sāguna brahman"). "OM" is the reflection of the absolute reality,
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I lifted this from Wikipedia, but there are interesting parallels...
Hindus believe that as creation began, the divine, all-encompassing consciousness took the form of the first and original vibration manifesting as sound "OM".[3] Before creation began it was "Shunyākāsha", the emptiness or the void. Shunyākāsha, meaning literally "no sky", is more than nothingness, because everything then existed in a latent state of potentiality. The vibration of "OM" symbolizes the manifestation of God in form ("sāguna brahman"). "OM" is the reflection of the absolute reality,
Which is why yoga & meditation is so so awesomely calming.
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Like many religious parallels, I believe people have discovered the same universal truths the world over - just in different periods of time and different languages, by different thinkers/philosophers - but it's all universally the same and comes from the same collective consciousness in the same ways science has proven the 100th monkey principle.
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& the Catholic "Peace be with you," or Buddhist teachings, Hindu/Sikh/Taoist/Yogi/etc whatever = all one in the same.