I feel like a misfit aspie!

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I feel like I don't fit in on this site or with other aspies.

I don't have this crazy memory, i'm terrible with facts. I"m terrible at math, gammer and punctuation, science and english.

I'm more creative. I'm good with programming synths and making techno. creative writing that doesn't follow the rules of english. I'm good at creating orginal art. I have a hard time imagining but I can still do art. I'm much better with creating with out a criteria than with one. Every one has always told me what ever I do its always got like this distinct style that is my own.

I have this ability to just think of weird sayings. like let me think of one right now "super planet gue gue puffs". first thing that popped into my head.

I'm weird I'm awkward, I have a very strange way of expressing myself. I"m so obsessive that I have over 40,000 photos of different stlyes of art I saved off Google. but I don't know any of the history or meanings behind them.

I feel like most aspies are left brain and i'm right brained.

I'm also bi polar with voices so I'm not sure if that has anything to do with this. I don't hear the voices unless I come off my medicine.

I'm clearly eccentric I have a hard time with bathing often. The feeling of the water on me bothers me.

I want to meet aspies who are like me!

I feel like a misfit of the misfits!

Although were only 1 percent of the population it's pretty much a fact that nts are all the same.

Autism in essence means your disconnected from the mainstream, so it's no surprise that anyone with it will be far more likely to be unique.

I feel I am very strange for an Aspie too, and there's a lot of things mentioned on WP that I can't relate to at all.

I am obsessed with bus-drivers. I mean, come on - that is the most strangest obsession a person can have, and nobody here has an obsession like that. I think more have the same sort of interests as you than they do with mine.

I am bad at maths, I find some science interesting (like the universe and all of that) but only to a certain degree, and most NTs I have met also find facts about the universe interesting too. (I think ''NTs hate science'' is the biggest stereotype of all. Anybody can be interested in science).

I don't read many books. I went into a library today to try to eat up some time, and I just could not get into any books. I found myself looking in the humour section and I was reading joke books. And that's another thing - I am really good with understanding different forms of humour (definitely even adult humour), which is why I like comedies.

And I can feel empathy. I have good theory of mind. I am good with recognising non-verbal cues with people. The aspect what makes me the most socially awkward is shyness and social anxiety/phobia.

OK I do have a lot of Aspie traits but I feel I'm not as typical as some Aspies here.

I can't relate to the hypersensitivity or obsessive interests that other aspies seem to have, but I share enough traits that I do feel a sense of belonging to this community.

If you hang out here for a while you will discover it's a myth that autistic people are all left brained - there are lots of right-brained creative aspies here, so don't feel out of place! I am a scatterbrained artist who is bad at maths too. Though I do think the left-brain, amazing memory types are the ones who are more likely to be diagnosed, as they more closely fit the traditional profile.

I don't know if you may be female, but recent research about high-functioning autism has noted that female AS people actually are more likely to be the opposite of the left-brain, maths whiz stereotype and are usually interested in fiction or creative hobbies rather than facts and figures. Of course I'm sure many male aspies have this kind of expression of AS too (myself included). I think the stereotype of AS is broadening as we learn more about autism.

Hey, welcome to the RightBrainedUnGeekyArtisticClub.

There are many of us out there but most just dont get dx'd because our conventionally artistic ability and right-brain orientation masks our neurological difference.

There is an endless list throughout history of artistic, musical and literary minded autistic people, just like today, there are loads of us out there.

The stereotypical aspie is by far easier to pick out, but the reality is there are just as many feeling, intuitive, metaphorical, conventionally artistic, right brained orientated aspies out there, it's just that the the people behind the dsm are as blind and inflexable in their diagnostic criteria as they claim all people in the spectrum are.

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Yeah I found donnie darko to be a depressing and sad movie. My sister has her master degree in special education she teaches for a charter school she loves that movie. No one is a square peg that fits in a square hole and everyone is unique regardless of there label. People learn in different ways.

There are things I do I'm not sure other people do.

1. Sometimes I substitute words with just one word. For instance, instead of saying "I ate the fish" I'll say "I plumped the fish." "I played the piano today" becomes "I plumped the piano today." "The punter kicked the ball" changes to "the punter plumped the ball." When I slip and use this in conversation people just look at me weird. One of my brothers and sister know of this quirk, though.

2. Spending money on clothes and furniture are rare, if mostly non-existent, for me. All the rags on my back were purchased years ago at thrift stores. My one pair of sneakers is about 8 years old - and looks it. My 88 note keyboard is sitting on Styrofoam packing with two phone books atop each to help raise the keyboard a little more.

3. My computer's keyboard sits on a TV's wall stand that's anchored to the desk on which the computer sits. This allows the computer keyboard to hover over my music keyboard and I can easily slide it out of position when I want to play the piano.

4. Some aspies have a set schedule for eating as well as very specific things they eat. I'm all over the place, and adventurous, to boot. My palate is wide. The only thing I couldn't bring myself to eat last year was cooked mealworms I'd bought from a Chinese supermarket. I did taste it, though. It tasted like a cockroach.

5. This is silly, but my pronunciation of some words are just odd. Like "sigh." I pronounce that "sig-ah-hah" or "Shakespeare" is "Shack-e-spear-e." "Right" is, of course, "rig-ah-hut."

I don't have the stereotypical aspie way of being either. My memory isn't terrible by any means, but it sure isn't eidetic either. And I have learning disability in maths, physics and chemistry.
Aspies are supposed to like non-fiction better than fiction, but I don't.
Aspies are supposed to feel lonely and depressed because we have a hard time making friends, but I don't because there just aren't any people that interest me. I can't miss what (who) I don't want.

As others have pointed out already, there are plenty of 'non-typical aspies' here. And a lot of us are untypical aspies in at least some ways.


I currently have an obsession every bit as weird as bus drivers, probably stranger. I don't even wanna say what because it's weird. Bus drivers isn't that weird to me. I've had several obsessions like that throughout the years (the military, journalists, pilots).

You appear aspie enough for me, I think its better long term memory we are suppost to usally have and meny of, us myself included have weaker short term memories. I suck at math and alot of computer and "geek" stuff. I love comedy as long is its the right stuff, the beleaf that all aspies can't read social cues, body languge or can't feel and display empithy is just plain wrong. Its just that most of us are really very abnormally poor at it unless its really obvious and clear is a bright sunny day and even then mistakes are very often made. As for intrests I have had some odd ones such as streetcars, even going to another city just to ride them all day when I was younger.

All we share is a rare neurotype, what you do with it is all up to you.

It seems to me that the only trait that is shared by almost all the people here on WP is poor social skills. Many other traits are shared by many people but not necessarily by almost all.

I don't seem to have any in-depth interests. I do have very narrow interests, but not in depth. So I end up being very ignorant about things in general and not particularly outstandingly knowledgeable in my interests, which sometimes makes me feel stupid and useless. I wish I could have that special interest that people with AS are supposed to have.

I'm not creative at all. I have no sense of art. Opposite to the OP I feel left-brained.

My handwriting is rather good.

I think I have become a rather good listener with conscious effort when I have a conversation. Other people might see me differently, though.

And like the OP I don't feel I fit in here, either. I feel like an alien here though I don't feel any hostility against me. It could be due to my ESL status, cultural difference or gender concept difference or because I'm simply brain-damaged.

When I was assessed, I was told I have 'atypical Asperger's' and had exactly the same feelings as you! I'm not naturally creative/left-brained but I want to be and that's what I'm interested in, so I'm doing a PhD in Creative Writing at the moment. I'm also really good at 'twisting' things so I can cope with them- making uni essays about my special interest, making friends with people a lot older/younger than me to reduce social pressure etc.

You fit in better than you think you do, just by not fitting in in the first place.

I'm much more of a math/science/technical/economics etc left brained analytical kind of guy while one of my closest friends, also AS, is a lot more artsy/creative/wordsmith/metaphysical etc right brained hippie kind of guy. We have several overlapping traits and common special interests and get along extremely well with one another.There's value in that - getting offline and learning from a much more right brained person, well there has been for me anyways as it's made me a lot more open to a lot more different things in life and I find that I'm developing a much better balance because of it.

I think the reason you don't see more of those types around the forums is because.. this is an internet forum, for technical geeks who enjoy spending hours online reading forums and having back and forth text conversations. People like my friend spend approximately zero time on online forums because they're too busy gardening or listening to music or making art or learning something or doing some hippie zen thing or another & can't be bothered to spend their time doing things like this.

Excellent point. Although I would also agree with jk1 that WrongPlanet has a fairly diverse membership in terms of interests, hobbies and the like, spending a lot of time on an online message board is something you just gotta have a thing for. You'll see overrepresentation of some segments of the target demographic, and underrepresentation of others. Give the forum another try if you're still feeling it, and don't worry to much about not fitting in, because many of us have been misfits at one point or another.