Anyone ever wish they were NT?

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I do sometimes. I wouldn't want to be permanently NT (my neurophysiology is a huge part of my identity), but I would like to trade with an NT for a day, just to see what it's like : )

What would you try if you were NT for a day?

I would:

1. Write. I'm ambisinister (both hands as skilled as a right-hander's left), so I would love to see what it's like to write with a dominant hand.

2. Read the Onion. I have trouble with sarcasm and such, so I would love to see if the Onion is funny.

3. Go to a Party.

Sometimes. But I'd just end up doing a bunch of weird stuff that has no obvious purpose yet takes a lot of effort.. Eh

I would love to try and be NT for a day. I always imagine that some weight would be taken off of my shoulders if I were a NT for a day. I would feel like I was living directly in human experience, rather than carefully observing it. I also can imagine being a lot more talkative among people. I know that being a NT wouldn't be perfect but it would feel a lot different than being as Aspie.

I feel left out at times and impaired by my sensory issues. I'd only want to lessen some symptoms for some social situations.

It's a big call because it involves processing information very differently than I'm used to. If I were to be completely NT I would not be ADHD as well. I wouldn't miss the obvious signs but not have attention to detail. Change wouldn't lead me to meltdowns or shutdowns.

But my interests are now my life. If I woke up with no memory of them, sure it might be ok. But if I lost interest in sci-fi, science and couldn't write as deeply as I do, what would I do? Work 9-5 and then have beers and the pub with my colleague? Go to gigs with my friend and make more friends and hang out with them constantly?

NT's aren't spared from stress or mental illness either and people that are very social have so many dramas with their friends. It's a different kind of stress to what we experience but it's still stress. They still experience loss, and love and regret.

Given my many struggles I think I've finally found ways to use my strengths.

No. I'd rather see all the "NT" people get to be like me for a day.

i don't think being able to use both hands is an nt thing, i am right handed. i can't even eat with my left hand.

i even wear my watch on my right arm, which is the reverse of the normal, most wear it on their left arm.

the only thing i can do well with my left hand is play video games.

but i'm not sure i would like being normal, but in a way i think it would traumatize me a bit because my enternal world would be gone. i can't even deal with that for a few minutes let alone a whole day.

I've wondered about what it would be like, yeah. I think I'd like to spend a day in an NT's head, so I'd be better able to understand them. Human beings are such odd creatures sometimes. Odd, and fascinating.

To be NT permanently, though... heck no. Autistic is MY normal, and I'd like to keep it that way, thanks.

I can do all of those things without being an NT.

No, thank you. I wouldn't even want to be like the people who have hurt me in the past for a day. I'd be talking like a Valley Girl and I can't stand that grammar or sarcastic tone.

I wish for lots of things, though not changing me or someone else isn't among them.

I'll play with the cards dealt. I don't care about "winning" [or "losing"], just playing.

if i was to experience life without my autism, then i would not like it to be for one day only.

i alienate most people who try to be friendly to me because i do not understand what motivates them to say things they say, and so i do not know how to respond effectively, and therefore people feel maybe hurt or angry at my lack of enthusiasm for the social interactions they initiate.

if i were "NT" for one day, then i would most likely make many friends, and they would be eager to see me soon, and if i went back to the way i always am the next day, then, when they rang me or visited me, they would be stunned at my stonewalling change of character.

i do like people who seem to like me, but i have no idea how to steward my own participation in the interaction.

as i am, "friends" are too much trouble, and i do not identify with people, and i can not give them back anything that will make them feel good, and so i remain solitary. i do not feel lonely or anything, but sometimes i wish i was able to be socially fertile because i would have the love of people who i like which i value.

even on this site, i often say at the end of my posts that i do not want any replies, and that is because i do not think i can reply to their replies adequately, and as a result, i feel like i am talking to the wind. i am the cause of my social isolation and my statements that i am not expecting replies is also somewhat designed to relieve who i posted what i said to from the "chore" of replying due to "niceness".

i do not want people to talk to me because they feel obliged to, so i will say that i do not want replies because i feel like i am a burden on them to think of what to say back to me.

it is all ok, because i just plod along doing my solo stuff at home by myself, but i think if i were not autistic, i would feel more fulfilled in a way.

i see people everywhere with smiles on their faces, and they are happy that they have good friends, and they are admired and held in high esteem by those they enjoy being with. they do not consider it a chore to accommodate their friends because it comes naturally to them. it is as easy for them to be involved in a community of people as it is easy for me to stay inside and remain isolated.

if i was "NT" i think it would be very easy to socialize and find my place in a group of people, but as i am, i feel it is an insurmountable chore and i can not do it.

on the other hand, i see that "NT" people are crushed by things that i do not care about as i am.
image and reputation and popularity and looks and stylishness etc are things that i see many people grieving over, and i am spared that grief because i do not care.

so, as i see it, i am always locked in a feeling of complacency which deviates very little. i do not experience euphoria, but i also do not experience anguish.

is it worth the inevitable anguish i would feel sometimes as an NT to feel euphoria and elation?

i do not know.

all i know is that i have no decision to make because i will always be autistic until i die.

I doubt that life would be that much different if I were born NT. Being NT isn't all it's cracked up to be. Some NTs can be very unlucky. But I always wish I was born NT because a few things would be a bit different. Not silly reasons like ''I wouldn't be interested in anything'' because all NTs have an interest in something. In fact I would probably be interested in more things that are normal in the general population so that I fit in better.
But I think more of realistic things I wouldn't miss what are common in Aspies but are not common in the general population of NTs.

If I were NT (a typical 21-year-old female)...

1. I wouldn't be hitting myself in the head angrily just because all my cousins have more friends and more opportunity of finding a lover than I do

2. I most probably wouldn't of been at home on new years eve unless I chose to (unless it's a house party)

3. I would probably be able to get more motivated and enthusiastic on maintaining a nice hairstyle and being able to wear make-up without the difficulties of putting it on (I've got Dyspraxia so sometimes that makes it hard to groom myself and to fiddly tasks like putting make-up on, especialy eye make-up)

4. I wouldn't get people looking at me funny in the street for giving off ''hi I'm weird'' vibes without trying to

5. My mum wouldn't be worried sick about something (can't say on internet for privacy reasons)

6. I wouldn't be flopping onto the floor in my room crying just because of annoying distractions of everyday noises occuring outside my room (eg people shuffling about, the cat miawing, people talking, etc)

7. I would more than likely have more friends of my age and able to get along with my peers

8. Everybody wouldn't be throwing nasty comments about my weirdness, like ''ohh you upset everybody when they're just saying/doing normal things!''

9. I wouldn't be jumping so much at loud sudden noises (I know NTs do jump at loud sudden noises, but they don't react the same way I do, I literally feel sick and ill after a loud sudden noise, and I sit on edge all the time when I'm in a situation where a loud sudden noise might occur)

10. I don't think my brother would have chronic depression, because his depression is caused by me (a long story to explain)

11. I probably would have tried parties and sex at least once by now


The reason why I am angry at the fact that I have this awful AS is because I wasn't meant to have it. It was just a fluke to make me suffer, and also I'm mild enough to be aware of what I'm missing, but severe enough to not be able to do these things I want to do, due to underaverage social skills. Doing the things I want to/should be doing is not going to work out because people are just too judgemental and won't even give me a chance. Also, Autism doesn't run in my family, as far as I know, and my mum knows a woman who does have Autism run in her family, but she has four children and three grandchildren, and all of them are NTs. It just doesn't seem fair to me.

I suspect NTs might have one of these quirks/oddities, but only one or two is enough. I have all of them and still more unmentioned.

If I were NT for a day, I'd have absolutely no idea what I'd do as I'm not NT. I doubt I'll gain anything from it.