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I had broken up with my girlfriend around last year, and we decided that it was better. It was hard on both of us, but we couldn't bring ourselves to say "I love you."

I still remember some of the cute little things that we would do with each other, like this:
I do something weird.
GF: What are you doing?
I tell her what I'm doing.
GF: Why?
"Because I can."

We're still friends and we still see each other on campus, and few days after we talked, I snuck a letter in her binder (she brought it to lunch one day) I told her that I would probably never love a girl again, because there's probably no person like anywhere else in the world. Kind of cheesy, but she took it well.

We were working together on a day project for a lab today and we were supposed to supervise each other. I cut a wire that I wasn't supposed to and I turned away to blink, but she noticed and she asked "You okay?"
"I'm fine."
"Are you sure?" after she said this, I blinked even more.
"Yes." This made me wonder, should I tell her about Aspergers and/or whatever else I have? I considered doing it because she had dated me and she has every right to know things that same people don't about me.

I just need some help on what to do. What would you do?

If you were still dating, I'd say, "You're going to have to tell her eventually," but since you have gone back to being friends, you have a little more wiggle room--it's a personal decision. Do you want her to know? Do you think she would have an easier time understanding your quirks--why you stim, or why your face may look blank even when you are not upset? If you want to tell her, then do it. I'm open about my ASD and it hasn't really changed my relationships, though I don't have any romantic ones. This neurological quirk of yours is not something you need to be ashamed of, and telling a friend that you have it is nowhere near "too personal" or "too serious" to say.

Maybe this will help you think about whether to tell her... Think about other disorders that affect people at a similar level of impairment, but that you don't have. If you have mild AS, maybe something like dyslexia or ADHD. More severe, maybe bipolar disorder or developmental delay. In any case, imagine a person with that problem, and their friend, and ask yourself whether that person should tell their friend, and why or why not. Maybe that will help you get another perspective on it, even if only in your imagination.

Tell her about it...

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Is that what they think?
This feels like when I found out the reason (many) NTs hate stimming wasn't just because it's unusual, but also because when NTs stim it usually means they are traumatized..

@OP: Just because you dated doesn't make her privileged to more info than you would be comfortable sharing. But if you would like her to know, then tell.