Defeat and a sense of inferiority right from the start

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At some point people realize that you don't have experience on anything social or that you don't have much to share about that, sometimes it takes one second , the dreaded first impression based on how you look, sometimes it takes minutes of a conversation or days but eventually it happens, there is that much you can do to sustain a relationship of any kind without talking about human relationships, and i think NTs spend 90% of the time talking about that, what they did, what they will do, with whom, and what he said ,she said and so on..

This gives me a sense of defeat and a complex of inferiority right from the beginning, i got used to it, the worst is to feel like that compared to people i don't like or don't even respect, but since they have their things going on it feels they are better than me, and many of them in turn feel superior i'm sure.

How can i have a different more positive attitude towards new interactions, when history repeats itself and on top of that i reinforce this vicious cycle with this self-defeating attitude. I don't see how that cycle can be broken out of thin air, without any positive experience to back it up. I know i create my reality to some extent but still i don't see how to genuinely overcome this.

I was feeling in pretty much exactly the same way. I'm sorry I cannot offer you any solution.

I don't think you are inferior at all though I can really understand why you feel you are. You were born differently and that's preventing you from learning to pick up the social rules naturally. It's not your fault. I know people judge you (and everyone else) based on how popular you are. If you think about it, that judgmental attitude itself is really silly. I think you should consiously think that not having many relationships (friendships etc) is not anything for you to be ashamed of. That way you can start building your self-confidence. Before I found out about AS, I was feeling inferior and ashamed, but now knowing what's causing it, I feel far better about myself and certainly don't feel inferior.

Having said that, it would make life much easier if you can comfortably interact with others and have some good relationships. I agree with you about that. I wonder if anyone here has any good suggestions.

I am always distant to other people. I can hold a conversation for 15 minutes on my best day.
When I was seventeen I barely could know how to reply to a 'How are you?'

But I won't let that affect me...
Because I am not interested in any relationships. I choose my friends as greedy as possible, because I'm just with people that understand me and have enough patience for me. I feel I just need to be with people I feel comfortable with.

What worries me are my abilities.... I feel I have a great lack of skills compared to other people, I really need to master new skills...
I feel so unaccomplished in that sense, but I always try my best and don't give up easily. I've learned to play a little piano recently!! And now I have my motor problems a bit under control, and it's just getting better... Specially with the knife (I'm studying for chef)

I don't know how to help you, maybe that's something you should figure out, I really believe it doesn't matter what people think of you, we are equal, and we all have our strengths and weaknesses.

The most important thing is how you feel with yourself. You don't need to be perfect, as no one is. You just should stick with what works for you... I hope you can feel better, you're not alone.