Things that just short circuit your brain?

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I've discovered one thing that just short circuits my brain and just means I'll immediately be in fight or flight more.

Someone telling me that they're not freaking out (or otherwise doing something negative mood-wise directed towards me), while acting like they are.

Immediately I'm in flight mode. Running as far from all humans as possible.

I feel completely unsafe. It tells me everything is wrong and I can't trust anything and I must get away now.

It breaks me.

Do other people have things like that which reliably short circuit them and break them?

Well, I think my brain is just normally short-circuited. I'm like that almost every second of the day. Do I run off and hide in my room for a few hours, or do I stay downstairs and fight with everyone? And I do mean EVERYONE, I'll yell at the dog if he's being annoying.

So I think it's just a matter of whether I feel up to the challenge my brain has instilled in me. If I stand up to myself, I can get rid of my adrenaline momentarily, but it won't last. I have to go somewhere else and figure out what's inside my head. But usually I just stick around and make everyone's life miserable. It's my specialty, apparently.

a bee and me in an enclosed space.

I'm in a car or on a bus and the driver just slams on the brakes suddenly because of some other idiot's driving. I scream and completely freak. One time I was in a car with someone on a busy highway and some kid's basket ball just bounces off the windshield. I still wonder if that was an accident and the kid was too stupid to know you shouldn't play ball close to a street, or he recognized me in the car and threw it on purpose to be a jerk?

Having to fill out forms. I hate filling out job applications, loan applications, forms at the doctor’s office, etc. For some reason I find the experience exceedingly stressful. It may be because there are too many questions being fired at me in a short span of time. My new supervisor is very bad about that. He’s one of those types that fires off question after question when one or two will do. It “short-circuits” my brain every time. I have come very close to having a meltdown because of it.

1. When people change their stories. It makes me focus on details and I sound like a lawyer trying to figure out what's true.
2. When I'm concentrating and someone's talking to me at the same time. Cannot do.
3. Complex, fast movements like in martial arts or dance or something. I just ... can't.

1. noise
2. kids
3. anxiety in other people

A child (not mine) crying / sirens / squeel of brakes / ringing phones (your own especially)
Answering unusual questions in front of people
Speaking in front of a group and concentrating on your own voice
Being treated unfairly because you are what you are (passed for promotions and etc)
A stranger stopping to try to have a normal conversation with you (more than a passing "hi") when you aren't prepared.

Certain sounds short-circuit my brain: Some vacuum cleaners, small kids crying or screaming. I carry around ear-plugs in case I'm ever stuck in a waiting room with noisy kids.

Other people, especially conflict.

Electricity short circuits my brain. I had to.

Now more serious, people who feel the need to abide to social norms to solve conflict.

Someone telling me that they're not freaking out (or otherwise doing something negative mood-wise directed towards me), while acting like they are.

This, terribly. It makes me doubt the things I've learned, in figuring people out, and sort of puts me in this overwhelming worry of, "What if I don't know what's real anymore? What is going on?!" My husband does this too often, and it kills me.

a bee and me in an enclosed space.

This! Also, the buzzing noise of any insect. Quickest way to see me sprint across a room, then hyperventilate? Sneak some buzzing bug by my ear.

When people change their stories. It makes me focus on details and I sound like a lawyer trying to figure out what's true.

Always! With similar reasons to the first one, above. "What's real?! What's going on? Why don't things make sense? Why is this happening??"

And, a few of my own:

People who like to say, "Oh, I'll just drop by some time today." or people who are chronically late/never come over when they say they will.
The anticipation and anxiety kills me. I find myself pacing in front of the clock, nervous. It ruins my entire day.

Sometimes, someone keeping me from finishing something I'm very intent on finishing. It really agitates me and throws me for a loop.

"Out of Memory" errors.

Let me explain.

I can comprehend time and space in my mind in correct proportions. Have any idea how big you are in relation to the Earth, the Earth to the sun, the other planets, etc.? How about the distance of time in scales of decades, centuries, millennia, etc.?

I can.

When I try to do it, or get into something that starts putting things into perspective of scale, the effort to "process" such distances in space/time creates what I call "brain fire" and I will literally suffer convulsions from the way it overwhelms me.

Maybe that's why people have a problem grasping large concepts. You can talk of "infinity" but I don't think the human mind can grasp anything more than the theoretical concept of infinity. To try to visual anything near that scale is beyond our cognitive ability.

Strangers staring at me when I'm just being normal. I never know whether to stare and make a ''what are you staring at?'' facial expression, or to just pretend I haven't noticed them and just carry on minding my own business in the hope that they will get bored with staring at a person who is as ordinary as anyone else. Ironically the former works better.

Noises outside my bedroom, like family nattering and shuffling about. I don't know whether to march out there and let them know that I'm disturbed, or if I should just endure it and stay out of the way. I find the latter works better.