I'm constantly paranoid. My brain will never shut up, if someone says something to me I can spend the next two hours overanalysing what it means, what they mean, whether it means they hate me, etc. It sometimes doesn't take anything at all for me to think I've annoyed or upset someone, and then I worry about it constantly until I find out for definite than I haven't. I don't usually understand some of the subtler facial expressions and then, wham, paranoia kicks in (does it mean they hate me, does it mean they think I'm disgusting, etc.) Unfortunately when I worry about these things I'm too much of a coward to approach the person and ask them about it; the few times I have done this I have been physically shaking. It wouldn't bother me too much if there was any rational reason for it but most of the time I find out I haven't actually done anything wrong!
The worst time for me is the school holidays, I have little or no contact with my schoolfriends over the holidays as I go to a boarding school, so distance is an issue. After about the first week, I start thinking that the entire school has turned against me and that has been going on in my head for days now. I try to challenge these thoughts as ridiculous and illogical, but it doesn't work. The reason it doesn't work, I think, is because I keep thinking oh, last time this didn't happen, but this time it will, so prepare for the worst. Plus, my school is my absolute favourite place, I love the people there, it completely turned my life around so the thought that they have turned against me is quite scary.
Does anyone else get paranoid or know any good ways of stopping this? By the way, stopping caring about what people think isn't an option, believe me, I've tried, and I can't make myself not care. The times I've tried this all I've just pretended I don't care which made me appear to be quite a nasty person, and of course I was only pretending so it hurt just as much.