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Caseyfritz
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04 Aug 2013, 2:06 am

I used to be a bit more laid back, but I theorize that because my meds aren't working as well as once before, my natural personality is coming back--which is that I get very angry at even the smallest things. And it's because I am so sensitive it's like my brain is exposed and people are poking it. Any criticism or ball busting or talking s**t gets me mad. Where I used to not give a crap at the s**t talking, now suddenly I feel really sensitive and it hurts my feelings, and then I get really mad. It's like I'm always irritable. Does anyone else have this?



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04 Aug 2013, 2:12 am

same 1000% worse at times... wish i had access to advanced weapons then that would be fun... like a (alien - type ) - like a disintegrator ray.... making people disappear... but i have no access yet... maybe in the future... :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:



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04 Aug 2013, 2:13 am

Lol, so then you mean it springs from sensitivity? or are you just angry?



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04 Aug 2013, 2:55 am

from reality.. no job.. no money.. no family (separated).. brothers don't care.. remarried family (mom + stepdad) - step dad sister and brother and their children...

think of separation allowing demons into the dimension of a person who hates humans now... but i'm a human but treated less of a human.. etc, etc, etc....

humans were genetically designed by alien greys... why are we so smart... genetically engineered by the species of a alien race called the greys

btw the greys aren't good....

they were once the slaves to another race the reptilians...

but broke free....

but i bet they work together now....



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04 Aug 2013, 3:19 am

Contents under pressure.


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04 Aug 2013, 3:52 am

DizzleJWizzle wrote:
from reality.. no job.. no money.. no family (separated).. brothers don't care.. remarried family (mom + stepdad) - step dad sister and brother and their children...

think of separation allowing demons into the dimension of a person who hates humans now... but i'm a human but treated less of a human.. etc, etc, etc...


That really sucks. If you should stumble onto any real cool alien weaponry and need someone to come help you kick ass, drop me a note. I'll be your huckleberry.



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04 Aug 2013, 1:49 pm

What medication were you on? I'm similarly sensitive and it really sucks, I wonder if neurolepts help.



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04 Aug 2013, 2:21 pm

just... make me mad that they live normal..... have cash, etc,

still stuck in my parents house (dad's) and live on 100 dollars a month to purchase items + food

:evil:

plus i hate the fact that i have separated parents.... who couldn't really give a damn
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i'm fine on no medication... besides why would i want to change myself knowing that the medicine doesn't cure me....

we need to focus on stopping the spread of autism (vaccines)



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04 Aug 2013, 2:55 pm

OlivG I take Lamictal and Lexapro, but you see I think in the past few months I have reached a tolerance where they barely work anymore.



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04 Aug 2013, 9:27 pm

I am like op don't want to be but I am I try my gudayme best tho



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05 Aug 2013, 11:20 am

That sounds like it's hard to deal with. Hope you guys are having a really good day today.



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05 Aug 2013, 2:04 pm

Caseyfritz wrote:
I used to be a bit more laid back, but I theorize that because my meds aren't working as well as once before, my natural personality is coming back--which is that I get very angry at even the smallest things. And it's because I am so sensitive it's like my brain is exposed and people are poking it. Any criticism or ball busting or talking sh** gets me mad. Where I used to not give a crap at the sh** talking, now suddenly I feel really sensitive and it hurts my feelings, and then I get really mad. It's like I'm always irritable. Does anyone else have this?


This describes exactly how life has been for me since my last surgery. My talk doc keeps saying it is a flair up of Bipolar 2 disorder. I disagree but thats what they say. I think its more because I am so sick of trying to be something I'm not to fit in and I am very tired even exhausted by trying to communicate with most people. So much so that I am overwhelmed and acting out, kind of like when I expeirence sensory overload and have a meltdown. Its just that these are smaller bursts that happen alot more often and are caused easier. Mainly I have been destressing, taking things slower and easier and taking a bit more me time. I seem to be mellowing out a bit but I still am this way a lot.


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05 Aug 2013, 2:53 pm

Faye712, it almost feels like over-sensitivity causes an over-load of pain which makes us feel like an animal in a fight or flight mode and we become tired of flight mode.



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05 Aug 2013, 3:02 pm

Caseyfritz wrote:
I used to be a bit more laid back, but I theorize that because my meds aren't working as well as once before, my natural personality is coming back--which is that I get very angry at even the smallest things. And it's because I am so sensitive it's like my brain is exposed and people are poking it. Any criticism or ball busting or talking sh** gets me mad. Where I used to not give a crap at the sh** talking, now suddenly I feel really sensitive and it hurts my feelings, and then I get really mad. It's like I'm always irritable. Does anyone else have this?


My dysphoric manias are exactly like that. What I wouldn't give for a flame thrower. They suck, and it is the worse feeling.

I go from mad to rage in two nanoseconds.



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05 Aug 2013, 3:17 pm

I also get angry easily and a lot.
Anger is one of my primary feelings.
But I don't get mad when I'm being teased or criticized (I don't give a s*** of what other people tell me or think of me).
I usually get mad at people if they touch me when I don't expect it, or because of other things that other people consider "minimal" but that I get mad over anyway.

In 10th grade a classmate during the break stained my desk with tomato sauce and I got mad at him.

In 9th grade I found a packet of tissues on my desk that didn't belong to me and I threw it across the classroom.

I've always had troubles with anger management, ever since I was very little.
I can recall a teacher scolding me after I had had an anger outburst in kindergarten.

I also had various meltdowns during elementary school, fewer in middle school and even fewer in high school.

I was usually quiet (exept that I interrupted) and maybe I looked a little shy in elememtary school, but when something made me mad I could not control myself in any way.



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05 Aug 2013, 3:57 pm

Caseyfritz wrote:
OlivG I take Lamictal and Lexapro, but you see I think in the past few months I have reached a tolerance where they barely work anymore.

There is both a negative and a positive way to look at this; for instance it could be lucky as it gives you a chance to work on your own reactions, to make efforts, learn more about yourself, change your view and begin to see the similarities between your own reactions and the behavior of others and so process what is happening from a different perspective. So the understanding you gain will be forever yours, and you will not lose the inner balance and equanimity because some medication (that is probably is not even good for your body) wears off....
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