miserylovescompany wrote:
It feels like I am at war, some sort of personal conflict with the computer, my mind perceives it as a living being, that is able to plot against me and cause me the great amount of stress it does. I have several panic attacks a day, several urges to mess it up that I have to resist because my partner uses it, and my mum has refused to pay for any more repairs.
There's one thing you could do which could help you a lot - some versions of Linux can be run off a CD, without needing to be installed on your hard disk. If you downloaded Ubuntu (that's my favourite, it's nice and easy to use) and burned it to a CD, then if you managed to break your machine, you would at least know that you could just put the CD in and run Ubuntu off the CD - which would let you get on the internet, and so on, and there'd be no way you could break it (short of physically destroying the CD)
If you want to try it out, send me a PM and I'll give you step-by-step instructions if you like.
As a bonus, once you're confident doing this sort of thing yourself, it helps you know why the machine is doing whatever it is doing - once you can install the operating system from scratch by yourself, you don't have to be so worried about breaking the machine any more (although in practice it may still be extremely annoying to have to fix it.)
(edit) Also if you like, they'll send you a free CD of Ubuntu if you want one without having to download and burn it yourself, but it might take a while to get there.
Here's the link for it.
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