Was this a meltdown or a shutdown?

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Basically, I had to go and see someone at lunchtime in school who I'd never met before, and I was freaking out before it because I hate meeting new people. I met the person, and he spoke, then said "do you have any questions?"
I went mute then because I was very anxious. I just sat there for about half a minute before making a weird panic noise and running out of the room. I then went back to the room where I eat lunch and someone asked me "what happened? Are you okay? Were they nice? Tell me? Talk to me?"
No way could I speak at that point and I was trying to hold back tears, but they kept pestering me with questions. People in the room were playing catch with a pen, and after two throws, the pen went straight at me and hit my neck. At that point, I couldn't cope and I just moaned and burst into tears.
The person hugged me and asked if I was okay, and people were crowding round me and all I wanted was to be left alone, and I still couldn't speak and I just wanted everyone to go, so I just made this weird frustrated growl, but no one reacted so I grabbed a chair and threw it across the room then ran out of the room crying and I banged my head against the wall in the corridor then went to my next lesson and people asked if I was ok again.
I just screamed and turned away, then people got the message and backed off. I went into my lesson and just zoned out as a coping mechanism. I don't know what happened in the first 30 minutes of the lesson because I zoned out and I calmed down when I blocked everything out (when I zoned out).
Would this be a meltdown or a shutdown?

Also, I felt, and still do feel very exhausted after this.

The answer would be yes, unless you're asking whether it was one or the other. In which case, it's semantics. One could say that a shutdown is one manifestation of a meltdown.

Sounds like a panic attack to me however thats up to you to decide, the definition of Meltdown, and shutdowns varies a lot from person to person but with a vague description you can decide for yourself

Meltdown: A loss of Emotional and/or physical control in stressful situation. Over pour of emotions

Shutdown: Brain dissociates itself, brain shuts down information processing, language and cognitive function. Person can still function but very limited

Panic Attack: Overwhelming feeling of anxiety causing difficulty problem solving, black and white thinking, hyperventilating, difficulty talking, and feelings of flight or fight.

It sounds like the build up to a meltdown, followed by a shutdown. But, either way, I am sorry that you were dealing with this.

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31st of July, 2013
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