A little. Sometimes. Not really. Hard to explain.
When my grandfather died over twenty years ago, I almost cried the second I heard, but then didn't. I felt bad for my grandmother.
When my mother died six years ago, I only felt the urge, but never did, and that was only during the funeral itself. Oddly, I didn't feel like crying more my own sake, or hers, but for the people getting up and saying their peace, some of whom were very emotional. I felt badly for them, because they didn't know what it was like to not be bothered by it.
When I heard my grandmother finally died last December, I didn't cry or even feel the urge until the service itself, and then only the urge, and for the same reason as at my mother's funeral.
Strange huh?
Death, and the thought of death doesn't really bother me. It might though, if one of my kids were to...
never mind. Rather not even think about that.
I was this way at my grandfather's funeral 3 years ago. My sister had a total meltdown when she saw the casket, and I felt bad that I was so calm.
My daughter almost died when she was 3 weeks old due to reflux draining fluid into her lings. I was in a complete panic, but never cried. Not one tear.