I dont believe that change is really much of an issue for me but one thing ive struggled with is adjusting to some of the changes that have occurred in the last few years.
I didnt adjust to my a levels, I didnt adjust to adulthood, I didnt adjust to moving house (my old house is still "home" and my new house simply isnt and this will always be the the case) I also havent adjusted to living independently. Furthermore I didnt adjust to work all that well (though I was bullied persistently and had to quit as a consequence).
I basically havent adjusted to any of the changes in my life over the pasat 6-7 years. Emotionally and psychologically im still a 12 year old child to be honest which is how I explain that.
Is it more a failure to adjust to change or are there other factors at play.I deal well with most change as far as I know (yes this thread would suggest otherwise) but I dont give a sh*t if the bus changes colour or my uni timetable changes (well that would be a little frustrating but then itd annoy most NT's too)
One thing though - the other day I was exhausted stressed miserable etc and went down to uni to work but the study centre was closed. I had a meltdown/breakdown as a result/was in tears. I would attribute that to the fact that it took so much for me to get there and it was all for nought plus im incredibly stressed about my coursework.
Joy for me has always been an unlimited stretch of time to do my favourite activity. That was video gaming as a child is now surfing the web and learning/discovering new things/music/videogaming. Any change to that and I become quite distressed.
Do I need to work on my capacity to cope with change I wonder or are other things to blame for all this
02 Dec 2013, 8:16 am
