I'm sick of being bossed around

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This has something to do with autism. I'm autistic and this person will not even acknowledge that. They said me having it was bull**** once and since then I've sort of lost all respect for them.

This person, I live with, my sister who has either bipolar or borderline personality disorder or both, and OCD is a major control freak. I know to a degree it's not all her fault but she doesn't even try to deal with her issues. Or medicate them. I have autism, ADHD, bipolar and do all I can to be nice to people and consider them as human beings.

I didn't mean this post to be such an attack on my sister but I'm angry. I'm sick of her telling me what to do, even what I should eat. Just recently I tried to tell her why I wanted to eat a type of bread and she refused to listen. I mean it's ridiculous that this even has to be an issue at all. She got me to feed my own cat tuna because what I was feeding her was like 'feeding your kids fast food every night.'

She picks at my food without asking. When she wants something from me I have to do it right away, despite me not coping well with change or a disruption to my routine or the fact I'm slowly overcoming PTSD which has made me afraid of going outside.

When I need a little help she's never there. And to make things worse she is so sickly sweet and emotionally abusive.

I struggle to talk about anything personal with anyone. When I try it's like there's a block between my brain and mouth stopping anything from getting out. Unless I'm screaming.

I know I can be a manipulative person and I think this is because I panic and lash out when I'm feeling controlled, and I've been pushed far enough to already shut my emotions off, and as I'm at a loss of how to handle this situation all I can think of is messing with her head or become completely insubordinate. I'm usually doing things for people too easily so I can avoid tension, but now the thought of messing with someone and making them angry, even panic, makes me laugh. I've got a dark side and I've tired to push it away, even medicate it, but it wants to come back.

Why should I just obey people who will not return the favour? I want to make them squirm. I want to show them they can't drain me of my finances to feed an alcohol and drug habit.

The obvious answer would be to move out but I don't feel like I'm ready and the people I live with need my money. I guess I've got a lot. I'm good at budgeting but I no longer want people to take advantage of that fact. They need to handle their money better.

You can call me a sociopath if you want. I've heard it all before and I don't think I'm that far from becoming one. It would be good to get some control over my emotions.

I don't know if it's just the manic depression talking but I feel I've been pushed too far and I'm at a loss about what to do. And I want to eat whatever f***ing brand of bread I choose!

They're using you for your money. They're holding you back, and you know it. You'd be better off to get your own place and forget about them.

Wow. Tough situation to be in. The few times I've found I couldn't live some people somewhere, I gladly moved out and lived in my car. I'm extreme that way. By then I guess I was used to the homelessness. I feel your pain, though. You're stuck between a rock and a hard place. One could only hope that, with time, your sister will back off and not stress inconsequential things like bread and cat food.

Yeah, it's mania. I just set myself off.

I would like to but the adjusting to change and being completely independent, scares me. I'd be too scared to be alone in the house at night. Sometimes I have panic attacks when that happens.

I could move in with my mum if I want to be told the same BS everyday that is 'everyone has problems and goes through the highs/lows and just deals with it.' It makes me want to play in traffic.

Maybe I just need to go out more often. Some days I could. The good part of living near the city. You can never get bored.

She's always out a lot too. I just think people should no longer let her get away with it. She managed to convince a lot of people that her ex-boyfriend was physically abusing her. When you make it impossible for someone to leave when they're that angry then grab onto them, they reach breaking point.

She does eventually get the point, but only after I've had a meltdown and screamed at her. I managed to keep her out of rearranging everything in my bedroom.

I've actually become more rigid in how I handle things. I want order and everyone to operate at schedules so there's no sudden change to get upset by. I don't say these things because I know I'll hardly be listened to. I'd rather be with my interests too and I don't care if people think I'm being rude by 'ignoring them.' Soon I'll be asked if I'm ok because I'm less social. Actually me getting back into my interests isn't just because of my sister. I want to stay off Facebook because a few things about that site annoys me. And I want to stop worrying about trying to fit in with a certain group of people.

......I can only relate to your post because I have a less-intense, but similarly-structured problem. I still live with my parents, one of whom is already retired, and when I'm not writing/watching TV/playing Batman: Arkham Origins or whatever, it's nearly a constant stream of commands:

Empty/reload the dishwasher
Clean up after the dogs
Empty the dryer
Get the dirty clothes out of the bathroom
Pick up the trash cans and take the trash outside

The worst part about this "arrangement" is that I sometimes get called to go do something RIGHT AS I'M SITTING DOWN, after having returned to my room from whatever chore I just finished.

This sort of thing used to make me want to punch a hole in the wall, or scream, or do SOMEthing, but now I just try to take it in stride. From what I understand, pensieve, my situation isn't nearly as bad as yours---namely, my parents don't walk into my room and rearrange stuff (at least, not since I nearly screamed my head off after my mom deleted something from the "My Pictures" folder on my old PC)----and I definitely understand the desire for schedules and stuff (I've had fits when the TV schedule gets changed).

I'd try to offer advice, but I don't want to say the wrong thing and screw up your situation even further.

That's alright, Duke Nukem.

Well, I stood up to her today in my usual shaky yelling voice.

Let's see how this all pans out.

She's now saying that I need help. Because I'm less social and more honest? I've never done so well in my life.

Her words are so manipulative but I ignore them.

I can't believe she thinks it's ok to want to change things about people.

parents need to taught a lesson... i know my parents won't listen since they are arrogant/ignorant people... this is true with my retirement savings of my odsp stuck in a bank. remember cyprus.... they are fools i don't trust my parents/family/siblings