This morning I had a further consultation in regard to whether or not I am a person with aspergers.
This afternoon I went to see my GP (General Practitioner) about something unrelated.
My GP asked me how the aspergers assessment was going, and then said "Where do you go from here? Maybe you'd be better off living on a desert island".
I've been thinking about it, and maybe it isn't a bad idea. After all; I wouldn't have other people distrupting routine, or the sensory overload caused by chaotic society. I could live in peace, and be one with nature.
My favourite book has always been Robinson Crusoe, and when I was a young adult I did research into possible islands where I could go and live on my own. I think that actually I would like it. I have read the SAS Survival Guide, and find all that sort of stuff very interesting.
I wouldn't be alone as I would have all the animals around me. I know I could make friends with them, and that they'd accept me. They'd soon become tame.
Maybe my GP shouldn't have said what she did, as I have taken it as advice from a medical proffesional.
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We, the people on the Autistic Spectrum have a choice.
We can either try to "fit in" with the rest of society, or we can be so egocentric that we can't be bothered.
I choose the actor. I observe NT's. I listen to their socializing. I practice it, so in social situations I can just emulate/mimic what is expected.
It isn't natural for me, but it enables me to "fit in".
It is VERY tiring and draining, but at least we can appear like them even though it is an act. Like being on the stage.
They can't see it is emulation, and so we are accepted.