As much as I want to, no I can't. I'm not sure if it's out of jealousy (most likely), but watching then always bothers me. Seeing the success of Alex and what not hurts me a little, it's not that I don't want them to succeed as I am very happy they have; it's more the fact that I feel like I will NEVER be able to propel myself to that level of real life success, and that infuriates me.