I'm a strange combination of very impulsive yet very cautious... that sounds totally weird and contradictory, doesn't it? I mean I act on impulse, but I'm also always imagining worst-case scenarios and analyzing everything as a response to that, to make sure I don't do something dangerous or risky.
I think most of my "impulsiveness" comes from me living in a kind of eternal now. I don't have a sense of time; the past is a fog, I can't project myself into my "future life" (I can never answer those "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" kind of questions), so I'm always living in the present. I have no concept of saving money for something, if I want it I want it now, not later; but if I don't have the money now, I'll just spend what I do have on something else rather than save it up.
I eat when I'm hungry, drink when I'm thirsty, pretty much just do what I feel when I feel it, unless I choose to defer to another's needs, such as my husband or daughter, who are priorities in my life.
I waver back and forth between seeing this as a bad thing and seeing it as a good thing. I mean, actually, according to my spiritual path, there is a distinction between thoughtless impulsivity and aware spontaneity; I think I tend towards the latter rather than the former. This spontaneous-living-in-the-moment is actually considered a state of grace, something to work towards as a spiritual discipline. And I'm here naturally -- a blessing?