How do I stop myself from melting?

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Ok, so there's this teacher of mine that practically made my life hell. He's wronged me a lot, and he affected my academic performance a lot.
So now I am leaving this school within a week, and before leaving, I am looking forward to settling my disputes and problems with everyone here. So this teacher just came to me, and I told him I'm leaving, and then somehow he managed to get inside my head and make me feel guilty about complaining about him and making me reconsider. I mean, he's done so much bad stuff to me, and now he's just able to talk to me for 5 minutes and I melt emotionally and begin favoring him? I mean, what the hell? How do I deal with this? I don't want to become weak at this last minute.

If you're leaving within a week it sounds as if it would be too late to re-consider, unless your school system is very different to mine.

Assuming the latter, the best course of action would probably be to have a chat with him and the counselor, either individually or at the same time. If your parents know about it, maybe they could ring him and explain your issues to get the pressure off of you. Consider strongly your reasons for hating him before doing anything drastic, as you may be in the wrong if he was able to convince you so easily (not necessarily true, but probable). You are diagnosed with Asperger's, so I'm assuming that you are more than capable of thinking logically concerning the matter.. unless of course I'm stereotyping too much and you're a case that has intense, uncontrollable emotions or both. I don't know anything about you.

Appearing 'weak' should be the least of your worries. Teachers won't care if you appear weak.. you are a young person in school after all, going through a tough time in life. If anything, they will view you as a stronger person for being able to admit to your wrongs, that is if the teacher in question isn't a cynical bastard or anything like that.

So just consider your reasons for hating him first of all. If he 'made your life hell', how, and why? Figure these things out, and if, logically, you determine that they are not malicious, be the strong person.


EDIT - Forgot to say, leaving a school is a big decision. Additionally, if you are comfortable, you can talk about it in a PM with me with regards to what he did, said etc and why you found it so harmful. When you favour a person that 'gets in your head' under similar circumstances, usually it is for a good reason. Maybe you respect him because he gave you an understanding you previously didn't have, or an insight into improving yourself. I don't know. I may have my head in the clouds here, but I feel that it was worth saying.

For the most part I generally think logically, but during times like these, when someone has done me wrong and then talks sweetly to me, that is when my emotions and forgiving nature takes over me. I know this, as this has happened with me before mutiple times, and at times I've forgiven people during such situations and they've given me very good reasons why not to ever trust them again. I am not going to reconsider leaving school, I've been hoping for this day to come since 4+ months now, and I am literally the happiest person on earth right now since I am finally able to get out of this hell hole. This whole educational just doesn't suit me, like most other Aspies, and school is a very very frustrating experience for me. I am not in the wrong here, I am naive when it comes to dealing with such situations, people are able to manipulate me over and over again, I am stupid like that. Not something I'm proud of. People can generally manipulate me very easily by just talking sweetly to me and things like that, because that is something that happens with me once in a blue moon, and hence I tend to create a soft corner for them. Well, considering he lets everyone use the schools internet connection to watch pornographic videos, yet he gets me blocked for playing around with and managing my servers, he's a cynical bastard.

Again, as I previously stated, he's talked with me sweetly and manipulated me into having a soft corner for him. Computers are my special interest. Everyone that knows me knows that taking away my computer from me for even 30 minutes will make me very upset and I might even begin to cry. You can't separate my from my computer. Its not to be considered a separate entity. This is a residential school, and this bastard started taking my laptop away from me for no reason at all, just to cause trauma for me. For 8 hours a day. I got so upset, I was considering suicide. And he knew how upset I was. And yet he still kept taking it away from me anyway, for a whole week, just to see how it affects me. I mean am I a lab rat or something? Again, everyone who knows me will know that separating me from my computer is in invitation of disaster, and so did this ret*d s**thead.

Well, sounds like you have a pretty good reason to hate him. XD

Go ahead with whatever your plan was I suppose.