Who should I talk to about it

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I'm 24 (a girl) and found out yesterday that my therapist diagnosed me with Asperger when I was younger. And now I'm burning with that but I'm not sure if I should share this with anyone. She recommended me not to spread it. And I wouldn't. But I really feel I need someone to process it out. But I don't want to put all the weight on him and I don't know if it will slip out his mouth or even if he still will want to be around me....

I don't want to talk about it with my parents (though they surly suspect or even know). I'm gay and my mom made my life a living hell because of it. And she doesn't want my family to know I'm gay. So probably she will make my life difficult if she will know I'm AS or know that I know. I'm guessing that also my father will make me fell I can't tell anyone or even giving clues about it. Though he much more understanding and he does listening. My brother is out of question.

Iv'e got 2 close friends for years, that maybe already understood it, because they said I don't get social cues, but I don't if it will help me that much (and also I'm kind of afraid it would tearing us apart, because they are quite normal)

I've got really good friend that I'm kinda sure she has AS too, but if not, she still diagnosed to have mental illness, so she knows about struggles, and I feel free to be open with her, but she tends to not have hard time of keeping a secret. But she's the one I wan't to talk about it the most.

And I have two friends who are diagnosed and a few I suspect they have it too, but I'm not sure. But I don't feel enough close to them in order to confide them.

So... I really don't know what to do. I just in the last year finally got almost completely out of the closet of being gay. And it's not an issue anymore. Now I need to hide another thing. Not being open again.

Someone had my condition? finding out he has AS. being around close people who suspect, but still feeling so afraid to share? I know I have therapist, but I see her once a week, but it's new to me and I just getting kind of tormented....

Well, you can certainly talk to us about it. I hope being part of this forum helps.

I do have similar experiences in regards to keeping secrets. I am bisexual, and I only share that on a need to know basis. I am also not a Christian (Some you might think, "What is the big deal about not being a Christian?" For my family, it is a HUGE deal not to believe in Christianity and not go to church). I keep my religious beliefs to myself as well. I remember when I was first coming to terms with these things and wanted to be heard and accepted by my family despite my differences. It was very important for me not to keep these secrets anymore. Now, several years later, it isn't as important. I don't know why. Maybe it is because I know some people will accept me and others will not. If I know, for certain, someone has a negative attitude and will treat me bad, I don't say anything. If it is someone who I think will be understanding, I don't keep secrets.

This goes for my diagnosis of Aperger's as well. Most people don't understand even after you tell them, so I don't even bother anymore. I only tell people who are really close to me so that they understand my behavior better. It is on a need to know basis, basically.

It never occurred to me that this should be something to particularly share or hide. you said that some people suspect already, is there any need to make a big deal out of it?

Talking to people here might help with your understanding / getting things sorted in your head. otherwise try your most understanding friend to test the idea. Try not to make a big deal about it. maybe mention it casually, test their reaction and decide if you want to keep talking to them about it or trying someone else.

Good luck.

Can't take it casually. Just know now that I got it. It took me years to take being a lesbian so casually and not make a big deal out of it, and there are still place I can't talk about it.

There are like 5 people which I think suspect that I have this, which are closest to me (well, one of them is my mom, which I'm not close to, but still, I think she and my father got former diagnosis from other therapist.). To each one of them I am sorta reluctant to tell.

the other which close to me, but not the closest- I'm not sure they know. They are weird themselves, and I do have kind of good performance, and I kind of can sense the vibe in the room and act accordingly. Also if I feel really comfortable I am very social, and I feel like the opposite of alienated.

Still, there are many time and places, people don't really talk to me, and when they do, I feel kind of aspie, talk and act differently, in the way which visible to them.
But I don't care about them that much. And certainly I won't talk to them about it.

those who I think they know it's because they are so close to me, and saw me in many situations, and know my quarks.

The thing is, there is no specific reason for any of them to know. I want to talk with them about it, just because. I also have misophonia, which makes me feel rage or anxiety when I hear some noises (usually voices people do when they eat). That I *need* the people who hang with me to know, so when they do some really irritating noise I can tell them, or when I need to change seat and need to take them with me because there is someone around me makes repulsive noise, we just can change seats, and they will understand.

But for what reason people should know I have asperger? besides the times I need to tell them I can't understand when they tell me false story for amusement, because the changes in the tone is so refine, or when I need them to tell me things directly sometimes and not just implies, because I can read people feelings, but not their hints. But those things I can just tell them without mentioning my situation.

I don't know if anyone specific would really help me, and I don't feel the need to let a larger group of friends to know, because I'm not the weirdest among them. They probably don't guess and it may ruin what I have.

I saw it when I came out as gay. There was a just little relief when just some people knew about it, and if I lost someone due to it, it was hurtful, 'cause it was big deal to me back then. Now, it's almost not a secret and that what people see. And I feel free. But knowing I'm aspie is new to me, and I don't want anyone to know, and when you confide some, you need to think carefully who.

But still. I just really want to be free about it, when I know first that I won't get hurt. Or only just a little bit...

sorry if it sounds too bitter and with self hatred :/