Escalators are not a huge issue for me anymore. I just focus on the one step I am aiming for, rather than the set of steps as a whole. Stairs are another story, though. I have fallen UP stairs, and I have fallen down stairs. Down is the worst, and since my "accident", I am sometimes even afraid to go downstairs, though I try to force myself. I don't know why...if it is related to autism or not...but sometimes I am going down the steps, and it is as though my brain forgets how to do it. I momentarily freeze as my brain and my feet try to make some sort of sense about what I originally started to do (descend the steps). I don't forget I am going down the steps, but it is as though my brain simply forgets how they work. If I can quickly remember, I am fine. If it doesn't click, I have an accident. Also, if I am not literally staring at the steps, I have a very poor judgement of when I get to the bottom, and I will "miss" a step, and fall hard. And I always fall hard.
One day close to 10 years ago now, I'd say (8-10), I was going into my unfinished, cement-floored basement. I missed the last step thinking I was at the bottom and wasn't, and tore the skin off my right knee, and my left elbow entirely. It looked more like I was just pulled out of a car accident than having fallen down one step. That was NOTHING compared to just before Christmas 2007, though. Everybody was trying to make excuses for me, "the steps were icy" (um...no they were not); "she tripped over her skirt" (nope, that did not happen). Let's just tell it how it is: I just stupidly was not looking and not paying attention, I missed the last two steps and fell HARD on the cement landing below. I ripped the ligaments off both my ankles. An ambulance had to come because I could not move. My feet were so swollen: I remember hearing them call in that I likely had two severely broken feet (everyone was shocked when the xrays showed no breaks...so I must have really strong bones--especially because of the position I was stuck in when I landed and while waiting for the ambulance). I was practically bed-ridden for about 3 months, and had to do about 3 months of physio. Nearly four years later, I can walk yes.... but I can't run like before, I can't jump even lightly, I cannot get down on the floor and back up again, my poor balance is even worse, and my ankles are still really stiff (and sore if I stretch them far enough). I HATE steps!
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Diagnosed with classic Autism
AQ score= 48
PDD assessment score= 170 (severe PDD)
EQ=8 SQ=93 (Extreme Systemizer)
Alexithymia Quiz=164/185 (high)