Degenerating as the day goes on

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Hi guys,
I'm always wondering if things I feel are due to having Asperger's or just part of being human. For as long as I can remember, when I wake up in the morning, I can see fine, my head feels "even" inside, and I don't hear the electricity hissing through the house or office. I can think clearly and make eye contact. As the day progresses, it's like parts start to shut down. My vision becomes fractured and my mind hurts and feels unstable inside. I hear all the bad noises and have difficulty making out conversations. I can barely make eye contact. Right now I can hardly focus on a single letter I am typing. Is this my AS or does this only mean I'm tired?

That happens to me too! I thought it was because of my job, but you love your job. Age maybe or a combination of both things - being around people feels like mentally running obstacle courses sometimes.

Happy Birthday (tomorrow) - hope you have a really nice day!

Thanks! The big 4-5.

I'm sorry to learn of what you are going through. It sounds like a frustrating thing to deal with.

I experience being lessened abilities these days also, though in slightly different ways. I couple of things I am wondering about though: I wonder how long ago you started noticing this, and also if there a time of day that the decline seems to start or accelerate.

Thanks for the feedback, guys, I really appreciate it. So I guess I get to chalk up another quirk to Prof. Asperger.

Marky, you asked how long ago did it start? I mean, my earliest memories of evenfall were always marked by this sense of falling apart inside. When it got very bad was when I was in high school and I was involved in all sorts of extracurricular activities and AP classes and so on. Even though I graduated at the top of my class, I was absent almost 40 days my senior year due to "sickness" (overload).

In fact I need to go to bed soon. Oh, and this is a new one: around this time of night the tricep area of my arms gets crazy itchy. And if I stay up any later then my back gets itchy, then my stomach, then my calves, and so on. I have big tactile sensory overload issues....

It can go either way with me. I notice a lot of days I wake up in the morning feeling okay, and by early afternoon I feel like I am already shutting down, getting discombobulated and irritable and unable to focus on anything. Then when I get home I rest hoping I will feel better but usually I don't, unless I sleep. But other days I wake up already feeling like I can't function, and just struggle through the whole day. The amount of sleep I get doesn't seem to matter. Also it can happen on any day, that I might get a surge of energy and clear headedness starting right about the time I should be going to bed that makes me want to stay up late. I just can't regulate my sleep patterns to a 24 hour cycle.

I feel like I spend a lot of time lately just waiting to feel better, to feel like I can DO something, but the relief never comes unless I sleep, however if I go to sleep every time I feel like I'm disintegrating I might as well just spend the rest of my life napping.

Thanks for the additional background. Just drawing upon my personal experiences I would agree it sounds like overload building throughout the day. Another thing I have noted is that as I age my coping resources decline, and I am more prone to overloads.

My casual working hypothesis is that my normal age-related cognitive decline tends to also sap coping resources. I am looking into polyphasic sleeping in hopes that a brief, shallow afternoon nap might help might help increase and extend my daytime productivity.

You freak me out lately JSBACHlover! Everytime I see something later that I think "wow, that's exactly how I feel" it is one of your posts.

I don't have time to respond to this post right now, but I'll come back later because it is a big issue for me too.

Happy Birthday JS!

I feel duller and foggier and less able to focus as the day progresses too. (Sounds like a lot of us here are morning people!)

Happy birthday!