Speech is often noise these days, because my brain doesn't process the meaning of the words until after the interaction has ended. It's more pronounced now than in recent memory, I think because there have been big changes to deal with.
When I have to engage in basic interactions, I tend to use an automatic script. I don't really know what the other person is saying, and I don't really know what I'm saying either. As in, the sounds have no meaning to me - even if I'm making them. I know that I appear to be making sense to others though - not complete sense, but enough to get by. The interaction is necessary, but it is also irrelevant. It has always been this way for me, and I can't force it to be otherwise - no matter how convenient it would be for others if I suddenly cared about the content of language. I don't want to be convenient anymore, anyway.
The world is easier to navigate when speech is noise, because my senses are no longer masquerading as a conduit for meaning, only as a conduit for information.
At the moment, I prefer for there to be noise instead of speech.
Can people on here relate to this?
02 Mar 2014, 10:10 pm
