Pronounced Autism?

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Sorry if this is rambling. Just trying to sort it out a way to properly describe the effects autism has on me, in a brief way to people in other forums.

I always have trouble using the right terms describing my autism and has caused people to misunderstand.

Based on what I have been told:
Intellectually I'm very sharp and perceptive in the way I see things in what I post. I think a lot of that comes from reading lots of books and learning character traits. So it's easy for me to understand the character traits of people on forums in text, because of the character traits I've learned about in story characters in text. Like I will think of someone as being like so-in-so in a book I have read. So I'm able to read people and their situations and problems in text that way. So everyone is like "wow you are so sharp and perceptive"

But in appearance I'm told:
I don't talk (well know that one without being told).
Withdrawn.
Lack of eye contact.
Odd face, neck and body movements.
Look inattentive to the untrained eye.
Almost constantly rocking and other stims.
Basically what someone might describe as looking like a "basket case"

Also I have trouble with my senses in my perception of things, like keeping a sense of direction and noticing my surroundings properly. Like I will take in small details like an ant crawling on on the sidewalk but at the same time might step out into traffic and get run over.

Would "pronounced autism" be the right term for the way I am, or is that just another way of saying severe autism? Which I don't think is the right term for me.

For some people in my family the only way they got to understand me more was though my blog. I'm never able to explain things that well face to face. Some people don't understand this and expect me to be as articulate face to face as I am through text.

I think you said you had moderate autism before. Does that seem to fit?

I have a lot of trouble seeing everything in my environment too. It's there but doesn't process.

Well moderate is a term I have heard used about me before. But that is always laced with other terms which get jumbled in my head. But yeah, maybe I should do a blog with what I wrote above and then link it to what I write. Like moderate autism with the blog passage linked into that.

Generally a lot of ASD behaviour is seen by others anyway, as like others say, NT's just know something is up.

I'm always rocking back and forth in public, or rocking my legs up and down viciously, I don't want to stop, or I get very fidgety. My behaviours are seen by others, it's what makes me so weird, and I like being weird Maybe I wish I wasn't as weird as I am, but I like being different anyway. Being 'samey' is boring.

I wouldn't say it's pronounced Autism, as behaviours are usually already seen in most ASD anyway, with or without diagnosis. Even if you think you're hiding it all your life, you probably aren't. I thought I was, then I realised "wow, people really do think I'm so weird, I'm not hiding this am I?"

The Reason I Jump by Naoki Higashida, I love it and own a copy...

I understand more about self than any other autism book I have read (several).
EzraS, it is very difficult for me to see how my autism affects me.

I did not know the English title, but in this country is got just published, therefore the book-review in the newspaper, and I really want to have it, and I am really glad, that there was this book-review in the newspaper, because people learn more about autism.

I enjoy reading your threads because it you're an interesting person and I gain a lot of insight by reading them. You can be profound and very intelligent at the same time.

Your posts are always easy to understand.

Writing seems to be your best way of self expression.

As regards people not understanding you on other forums the answer could be this is a complex subject and most people have no experience of it.

I have been banned from a number of online forums.

Well done I just avoid general discussion forums now.