Emotional Outburst..

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I had an emotional outburst
I was really stressed and anxious.... I didn't know what to do
I was in the middle of doing my assessment for school when my brother messed up the computer and it froze
It shut down...
I did not get to save my work and I was supposed to hand it in the day after that

I thought it was the end of the world.

I was very anxious and angry at the same time...many questions filled my head

'What am I going to do now?'
'Do I just ask the teacher for extension?
'Will she even consider the reason?
'How is she going to react?'
'Will she scold me?'
'Will I get a detention?'
'Do I just start all over again?'
'Will I even get to finish it on time?'
'Does this mean I have to stay all-night?'

and many more......

All these questions stacked in my head and I snapped

I crouched, raised my hands, pulled my hair out, screamed on top of my lungs, stomped my foot
And cried so bad

Basically, it looked like I had a terrible childish tantrum

Usually, I'm in control and level-headed....when I'm angry, I tend to passive...I bottle it all up
I stay quiet and think
But it was that time when I couldn't supress it anymore...it was all too much and all these questions....thoughts...inside my head...stacked up like meatloaves.....continually adding more.....I can't process them.....I can't analyse them....it was too much...........

I snapped.


Did you guys had any experience like this?

Yep. Just apologize and carry on, and so will everyone else.

(OT, but why would you stack meatloaf?:scratch:)

my mom cooked meatloaves and she stacked it......like a pile

It's hard for me to apologize though....'sorry' is an unnatural word for me....I can say it but I had trouble

I don't know how to say it..so whenever I had my moments....I carry on like nothing happened

Whenever I hurt people by saying things (without actually meaning to hurt them, just plainly stating the obvious)....I don't say sorry

This only happens though with my family members, especially my mom

I'm careful when it comes to other people...so I stay quiet, so I won't accidentally say something that will hurt them (plus, I've got nothing to say most of the time, anyway)

I remember when I didn't know what meltdowns were and thought there was something terribly wrong with myself. I am very glad to have learnt more in recent years. I try to manage them with breathing exercises and meditation.

Once I spent all morning baking this pie and when I took it to the lounge the cat jumped on it and knocked it over everywhere and that was it, massive breakdown, as if the world was ending or something. Its silly when I look back at it now.

However, for anyone to get upset when they lose assignment is a very normal reaction. I can't count how many 'normal' adults I have seen lose their filled in tax return or assignments and end up having quite a similar looking reaction.

Yeah, I usually try to keep calm but can go through emotional outbursts like these, too.

I can usually tell when one is likely to happen because I feel extremely emotional beforehand and usually try to find a private place have my meltdown because the few times it does happen in public, I end up feeling really embarrassed. Usually, the main emotion is sadness but sometimes, it's anger and frustration. The emotion coming through the strongest often determines if I will be mostly crying or yelling. After I've had my emotional outburst, I usually feel exhausted but relieved. This usually happens a couple times a year.