GibbieGal wrote:
In my case, out of many things, my psychologist brought up one thing that she found most convincing: I often don't talk because "I don't have anything to say." I'm not just shy or inhibited; I actually don't have anything goin' on in there (at least not something that would be used in a conversation). Maybe I'm paying more attention to my inner world than to people? I don't know. But for some reason, this stood out to her.
This is an interesting topic. And one I think about a lot (as I frequently question my diagnosis).
Like you, in many situations, I often do not have anything to say. I do
wish I could think of something to say that will result in a meaningful conversation. But, for some reason, it is very difficult for me. Even when I am with people I am very comfortable with (including family, siblings, etc.).
There are some exceptions, of course. When I am at a store and I need something (e.g. I need help finding a product), I have no issues asking for help. Or, when I am at work, and I need to collaborate with someone on an assignment, I have no issues asking for help or suggesting a possible solution. But, if I am with those same work colleagues and at an event (say a celebration lunch), I have difficulty talking about anything but work. Which is typically something people are not interested in discussing during that type of event.
Back to your question. I have asked myself, what if they ruled out Aspergers and attributed my “deficits in social communication and social interaction” to simply “being shy and introverted” or perhaps Social Anxiety, then what?
Well, then I would ask, how would you explain my “Restricted, repetitive patterns of behavior, interests, or activities”. I imagine, some of this could (possibly?) be explained by Obsessive Compulsive
Personality Disorder (i.e., OC
PD), which is
quite different from OCD. As that could explain a lot of things (including: forest vs tree thinking, black and white thinking, perfectionism, routines, lack of flexibility, various obsessions, etc.).
But, still, that would not explain other things. Such as:
- Deficits in Executive Functioning (which were quite prominent from the neuropsychological testing)
- Deficits in Sensory Processing (particularly auditory and tactile, motor skills, etc.)
- Near constant worry (which I have experienced from early childhood – which could be explained by an anxiety disorder)
- Near-constant dysphoria (which I have experienced from early childhood – which could be explained by a mood disorder)