Can I pat you on the back anyway? I really enjoy (most) of your posts and you seem like a sweet and genuine guy (plus I really love that you joined our cat parade with your shark)! !. You've been drinking a lot lately though, haven't you? I hope you are ok. Yes, Autism has some very sucky consequences. THe only things you can try to do are enjoy life without society or try to find work arounds. Unless you want to drink yourself into a stupor every night.
Hey, I'm not your Mom, but when I was younger I used to drink when I was in turmoil also. I was very lucky that I stopped before I became addicted - I hope you don't end up suffering that - it's an awful consequence and will only add more heartbreak to your life.
Take care of yourself!