Anyone else get really uncomfortable with endings?

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I hate last days of things. Like the last day of school or the last concert in a series. Anyone else here like this?

For me its always been kind of the opposite. I generally enjoyed the last days of something because I feel a lot of stress relief prior of the days I was under it.

I guess this shows that those days are usually not very good ones and they usually aren't.

Yes, same for me, OP.

I had a teacher I really liked, who encouraged and invested in me from day one on a postgraduate course I did for 3 years. On the last day, when we had a little farewell function, I was so choked up, knowing we would never meet again, that I couldn't even say good bye, I knew I would embarrass myself by bursting into floods of tears, I did see him once more, at graduation, and as the teachers paraded by us, the graduates waiting in rows to receive their awards, he came over and gave me a big smile - he looked like the proud father I never really had. But the next month was awful for me, I was really grieving the loss of his presence in my life.

Same thing happened with the surgeon who looked after me for four years (four operations and lots of meetings in between them). She just was so lovely and at my discharge meeting, I had to leave quickly after we said goodbye or I would have flooded her office with tears, again knowing we were parting for good. 3 weeks later, I got a letter from her, saying it had been a pleasure to meet and treat me, to call in if I was ever passing by, just to say hello and catch up. I really appreciated that, but know it would be too hard for me to do that without the pain of parting coming up each time.

But they live in my memories and my mind, their smiles, encouragement, their good will and kindness. They are a little treasure chest I keep inside me. Sometimes you meet special people who touch your heart in a very unique way, and your soul. But you have to move on, and that's the painful part.

The problem might be with big changes, except when going from an unstable to a peaceful arrangement. For that matter, I can think of some endings I might like.

well, I don't like the endings of things like work experience, a school lesson or of anything when I have to say goodbye, this is only because I am extremely uncomfortable with saying goodbye to people, I don't know why, most of the time I just disappear, I know I should say goodbye though.

I don't like the endings of good books, programmes and films because I love them so much, so you miss it and want it to go on for ever. I am currently holding off finishing 1984 because I just know its not going to end well.

I hate the last of anything. I hate endings, I have issues with hoarding and therefore finiteness is something that has always caused me problems.