I am getting sick to death of this anxiety now

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I am really getting sick and tiered of this anxiety now. I've suffered with this since I was 18, over 11 years. I've been on Citalopram for 2 months (40g). Although the anxiety within the house has almost gone, the moment I step outside it rockets and I can't control myself.

Today I had to go to court to appeal a motorbike related fine. My mom took me. The car journey was awful, and nasty. Anxiety attack all the way there. Then I had to wait outside for an hour because the lady told me the wrong court opening time. Blistering heat, and theres me in a wooly jumper. I had terrible stomach pains and had to run and find a toilet in the town.

On the way back I had a massive anxiety attack which has left me literally shaking. I'm at home now just getting calm.

I really hate this anxiety, I am sick of it. It seems like nothing is working to rid of it. I don't know if Aspergers is playing a part in all of this. But, it's horrible. I hate it.

I can't do anything except sit around the house all day and do nothing. I feel useless and worthless.

I hate it when I have a bad panic attack, my heart rate starts skipping beats and beating irregular. That's the worst part about it.

Hi, we are not professionals here on this forum, so can't offer medical related advice, only suggestions. based on experience I have only had panic related attacks and meltdowns during times of great stress. There are various medications available but only a medical professional can advise you on this. Oxazepam works for me and calms me down, but I don't know under what name it is marketed in your country. Sometimes a number of various meds have to be prescribed before the most suitable one is found that works best for you, since everyone is different.

I am sorry you have to go through this. It appears to be a combination of sensory related issues. You could also look at dietary changes if need be, such as vitamin supplements. I'm not saying that altering your diet will definitely help, but look if you're having sufficient od all the necessary vitamins, and getting enough protein and carbs in the right balance.

I hope you can find the strength to deal with these issues and wish you all the best. No-one likes to go to court at the best of times!

You are not useless or worthless. Take a step at a time. Try writing or art so you can express yourself through creativity - this definitely helps.

I really hate panic attacks too and I get them very often (I had a huge one last night and another today, when I had to go with my brother to collect a car he bought ...300kms away, and I hate being the passenger in a car (I gotta drive it).

However, you know what you are experiencing ARE anxiety attacks right? You know they won't kill you, you are not going to vomit or faint...you are not having a stroke or heart attack, so what is going to happen eventually?....nothing...a big, fat NOTHING!

Panic Attacks only start taking hold as soon as you entertain them in your mind, concentrate on them and think about them....your thoughts, fears and worries feed it into a vicious feeding-frenzy cycle.

As soon as you feel one coming on, go and do something...anything to take your mind off it. It's difficult at first, because the attack will keep on mentally prompting you and if that fails, create a whole new physical symptom you haven't had before just to try and trick your mind into entertaining the panic once more.

I know all about these silly things....they are like a spoiled child demanding your full attention.

At first it's difficult to basically 'ignore' the attacks and do something else (hard physical labor works wonders - I have been chopping firewood and scrubbing floors), then when the attack comes, just say 'go away, can't you see I am busy?' and just continue on...

Alternatively, you can say 'bring it, do your worst, show me what you got, but then, you gotta piss off, okay?'

After a few months of practice, it gets a lot easier to deal with - but it never, ever fully 'goes away'...you just learn to cope better.

There are two books I would like to recommend to you (that helped me a lot years ago):

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I wish you all the best.

Sorry you have to go through that. I've had anxiety for many years too. I think I've had various forms of anxiety since childhood but now I have generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD which makes me fear for my safety. I've kind of deluded myself into thinking anxiety is there to keep me safe.

SoMissunderstood, those tips you gave and books you posted are very helpful. Sometimes I forget that the anxiety aren't actually real things that are happening.

Panic attacks can get pretty severe though. My sister was talking earlier about thinking she would throw up for one and that's a physical sensation you always believe. Can you throw up from a panic attack? Maybe. Mine turn to seizures. So going through one isn't ideal. No one wants to purposely put themselves through a situation like that. I'm always willing to give it a go, but that push yourself through it attitude doesn't work for everyone.

I hate panic attacks too. Can you get clonidine or clonazepam or both? If not, melatonin and tylenol and ibuprofin mixed is what I use when I have nothing. I don't know how safe that is, but anything that makes me tired, I try. Even sleeping pills and allergy medicines. Probably don't listen to me. I do what I do but it's probably not the best thing to do.

What about Lexapro?

Panic attacks suck. I hate the ones that come with a feeling of impending doom/death. People who haven't felt that just don't understand.

I have Lorazepam for those situations. I was also taking an SSRI, Escitalopram, for a while, but it didn't agree with me. I felt insulated from the world, unmotivated and uninterested in anything and generally a bit dull-witted while taking it. So I am doing meditation for daily stress management and Lorazepam for those bad moments. I am sensitive to lorazepam and never need more than one 0.5 mg pill to nock down the whole panic mess, so I am not worried about the side-effects or possible addiction problems.

Please do try to get treatment that actually deals with the worst symptoms--you don't deserve or need to suffer like this.

Hey Jay,

How's the music coming along?

I know it's a bummer with these cops--and their durn regulations! At least you paid the fine, and it's not going on your record.

How's everything going with your lady?