simon2wright wrote:
I have only been diagnosed with autism as a child, my doctor thinks I have aspergers and psychoses, but I seem different to other aspies that is why I think I might have Schizotypal Personality Disorder, not only do I hear voices in my head, I hear music and other sounds as well.
Simon
When you hear music i your head.....have you ever noticed if there is a water pipe or heating vent in the vicinity?I often hear music in these situations......I test the hypothesis by plugging my ears and no longer heard the music,so,some how my rain is taking these "sounds" and making music out of them.I also have heard people talking and occasionally heard my name called when no one was around....I think there is a similar process.....I am hearing some king of "white noise" and my brain is finding a "pattern in it".It doesnt bother much except for asking someone in the other side of the house....."did you call?" and them looking at me funny and saying "no".....I thought for a while(when I was a kid".....that my mom was doing it on purpose to "mess with my head"..............As the saying goes.....
"Your not crazy if you hear voices.....only if you answer them"
I also considered that I was schizotypal?"....because I have such little desire for many friends......but then I remembered that I wasnt always like this.When I was in grade school.....I was "oblivious to most people.They just werent as interesting as bugs,plants,rocks and animals.But I did go through a period from Jr High through about 30,when I tried to make friends and had a few for "awhile".....but discovered,most were not worth the effort and pain that comes with human interaction......and books were more interesting then conversations with most people.......and the constant "psycho-drama" is just painful and confussing.But I do need some kind of connection with humans or I wouldnt be on WP.I dont think most schizotypical people would enjoy even this "minor" connection with others?
Paranoid to me is a logical reaction to a very insane world........When most around you seem to be operating by different rules of "logic" (or lack there of),I think it is only logical to assume that they are scary......Most people are afraid of things they dont understand.....People I dont understand,so they scare me at times.There emotional responses and thought process is "bizarre" and appears random at times,so I may cross the street to avoid them(Like they would cross the street if they see "gang members" or someone talking to themselves and wearing 5 layers of coats."......We are paranoid of things we dont understand because they are "unpredictable" and the unpredictable means you can not use logic to problem solve and know how to react.
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