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K_Kelly
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21 Jun 2014, 2:19 am

In everyday life activities, even down to the simplest task like scratching my head, I feel like a robot. I have no emotion and my brain has to follow a proper "syntax" and I don't know what can be done about it. How can I start feeling less like a robot with a syntax and have emotion?



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21 Jun 2014, 2:25 am

I wouldn't completely rule out the possibility that you are, in fact, a robot.

Take salsa dancing lessons for twelve weeks. It won't prove or disprove that you're a robot, but it might help you stop thinking about your robotic tendencies.



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21 Jun 2014, 2:57 am

K_Kelly wrote:
In everyday life activities, even down to the simplest task like scratching my head, I feel like a robot. I have no emotion and my brain has to follow a proper "syntax" and I don't know what can be done about it. How can I start feeling less like a robot with a syntax and have emotion?

You might be depressed.


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21 Jun 2014, 12:47 pm

I felt robotic for most of last year and the year before. People around me would be smiling and happy and laughing, and I felt dead compared to them. As in, "Meh." and I even put on a fake laughter and smiles just to blend in. People noticed this of course and just found me strange. I realise now that when *I* feel dead or depressed, it's just not worth interacting with people. When I feel dead, no amount of interaction solves it - I'm just a 'dead' person around people and they find me 'off'. I mean, I still get out when I'm feeling down, but I just avoid interaction with people. Luckily my friends get the message that I don't want to talk to them. They don't get offended.

Even now if I had the choice, I wouldn't smile if I didn't feel like it. Then people would find me rude. Most of the time I am smiling naturally anyway, but on my 'off' days I try not to interact with people face to face.

Only thing I could mention is that perhaps doing something you're passionate about would help, and stop doing things you're *supposed* to do, if you can get away with it.


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21 Jun 2014, 7:38 pm

DevilKisses wrote:
You might be depressed.

I don't know. Can depression make someone more robotic?



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22 Jun 2014, 12:04 am

K_Kelly wrote:
DevilKisses wrote:
You might be depressed.

I don't know. Can depression make someone more robotic?

It can make you apathetic, which can come off as robotic. Some people get sad-depression, where they feel bad about themselves and everything they do and they can't muster the energy to do anything without feeling awful about themselves. but some people get apathy-depression, where they just do things automatically because they have to. nothing really brings them joy, but they don't feel especially sad either. they just feel dumb and apathetic.

could be derealization too? i feel really robotic when i get moments of derealization, like i'm not real, and i have to force myself to live.



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22 Jun 2014, 10:06 am

I sometimes feel quite robotic in daily life, as I type,
as I do anything, my face is usually neutral nearly the whole time.
As a child I think I thought nothing of it and it felt natural and my way of thinking complimented it.

Now in my late teen years (now a lot more social but not completely) I notice it more strongly and don't feel necessarily
happy about it like I'm slowly killing myself with a potentially depression inducing
behaviour of not smiling that often. (It may or may not be silly but laughing does seem to have benefits in improving
mood and maybe brain chemistry).

When you do something fun/something you enjoy, are you still robotic?
I find that I laugh and smile a bit when I watch certain
programmes like The Big Bang Theory.
For example, I find Sheldon Cooper's eccentric behaviour interesting and sometimes funny,
especially since it feels like that's how I acted as a child. The humour is decent a lot of the time.

It seems Sheldon is an Aspie (not publicly officially since it may cause controversy over stereotypes)
with probably more severe symptoms than myself at my current age, but also extremely intelligent.
The 'nerdy' jokes (comic book and science references) may entertain you as well.

Perhaps cartoons with humour may have a similar effect.
Try to remember back to times when you genuinely seemed excited, smiling/laughing.
When you read a comic perhaps? When you were told jokes?
When you're with friends?
Hope that helps. I think I'm kind of in the same boat though. :(