lost for help in crisis..

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anyone have had a crisis that didnt fall under the general "crisis" term?
where do others go or seek help at these moments?

im having (well ive been having) a rough time.. on the verge of not being able to make it on my own. and now the only thing that has kept me on the verge and not fallen off of it, has been deleted from my life. (stimulant med). without it, even on good days, i find it hard to not only cope, and understand things, but also to be able to even slightly express myself (including written communication. i have no payee, or supports right now. im on the waiting list for bdds autism. and i feel like its a shattering type of instant need of help "ASAP!", but i lack the information as to where or what to do to that would remedy this. the general term used in any crisis situation is defined as wanting to harm yourself or others. im not in that kind of "crisis". is there anywhere specificly for those who are on the autism spectrum and feel like they are in a crisis?
this is the first time today that ive been able to think more than a few words and able to process things right now. but im still not as good as i normally am(maybe a nap will help reset the .... the... whatever -this- is. (dont know word to describe it..).. but naps do usually, im just not able to sleep in this current moment.
and im not social and out and about and with friends, so i really have no one that i can seek in urgent need. or have someone that i can goto to lend me their "level(ed) head", when mine cant deal with things straight and process things.

... oddly, just writing about it helped a little as well.

The people at the general crisis lines are good listeners and might be able to refer you. And you don't have to be suicidal they will usually talk to you anyway. Lifeline in the US and they don't require callers be suicidal. Anyone can have trouble putting words together when overwhelmed, so they may handle your communication issues fine if you are verbal?

I can relate to what you are describing, and it's the reason why I haven't been able to write more often on these forums. Would you mind expanding on the medication you were prescribed? It may be something I need to look into. Thanks

thanks, i'll look into it. i am verbal (only while on the stimulant med)... however, i still have difficulties, just not quite as severe.

sadly im not withdrawling yet. i took my dose for today, its tomorrow that i will begin going without. leading to the withdrawal effects (such as blood pressure of 75/52 (been through this quite a few times) it freaked the hospital staff out when i was cold turkeyed off of all my meds and somehow ended up in the temp psych hospital, but that morning the blood pressure machiene kept sounding that painful sounding beep alarm. (to signal somethinh is too high or too low(being too low in this case). but also i cant stay awake much. and my pulse climbs even higher into the 185bpms (again, i know because i was in the hospital at that time- just a different reason and place) it got up to 196 bpm before the ER staff started freaking out, and they couldnt give me something to raise my blood pressure because of my heart rate, and they couldnt give me something to lower my heart rate because of my blood pressure(they ended up getting an aide to go to the nearest pharmacy and filled and gave me the stimulant, which even things out within a few hours.

as for the meds that i usually take:
Vyvanse 60mg - 7am (wake up) - for autism symptom relief, and to keep me awake (i have "sleep disorder nos" which in my case is that i never ever go into the REM cycle stage sleep(thats after a sleep study and it was extended for an extra day, that entire time i never went into the rem cycle stage)

Viibyrd 40mg - 10am - counteracts the restlessness caused by vyvanse; and counteracts the seroquil's depressed effect on me.

seroquil 150mg - 10:30pm - counteracts the mania caused from vyvanse amd viibryd together (it was raised: and prior to that, it was to aid in being able to see others viewpoints, and reasonings(altho, only added with vyvanse that had that effect on me).

lamictal 150mg - 10:30pm helps with localized epilepsy, and then was raised and "adjusted" due to the viibyrd causing more severe locations of epilepsy (tongue, lungs, airways, etc.)

and then tomorrow morning... its deleting vyvanse out of the equation...
prior to these , since 2009, ive been on straterra (never again!) and ritalin, adderal, ritalin xr, and some others (but... ive been on vyvanse since 2009- with only a few short breaks.
but meds effect everyone differently.

It sounds like you are anticipating a problem when you come off the med and thus experiencing some anxiety about it. Try to engage in some positive stress free activities, whatever normally works for you to alleviate stress. If you absolutely can't stop being anxius then give your doctor a call and relay your concerns.

thanks

true.. but dont know anything that helps reduce... most require focus.... and with drawing, i lay and stare at a blank piece of paper and i want to draw, but im stuck with a blank page.

Sorry to hear things have been so rough for you. I agree that maybe you should try to talk to your doctor.

I noticed you said you would never do Strattera again. Do you mind if I ask why not? I just started on that....

Hope you are feeling better soon!

well... i had a really bad experience with it. and i was on it for a few months (but i also was on three or so times the highest daily fda allowed dosage. i had anger problems like crazy, and it was a constant problem, almost every minute something was setting me off. then it had a ... um... opposite effect on the um... - i dont even know a word to use that would childproof the topic, lol.. but how antidepressants generally have a lack of -something or another- drive. the strattera ended up having a very uncomfortable problem with it. and then when i stopped cold turkey (due to the doc not listening to me and telling me that it wasnt the medicene, and it was because i was in a place full of guys (group home)(not a possiblilty lol, ive been in classes that i was the only girl for more than half of my life). but i stopped cold turkey, and i ended up feeling so out of it, and not able to function mentally for a few weeks after. and then i had a case of fiber malisia(or something like that), and that stayed around for almost 5-7 months. and then i havent had that issue since (also didnt have it prior to the med). but along with it, i was also on vyvanse 40, ritalin 30, and cymbalta 120 , (and ssri's make me hyper lol) so all together along with me being on a super high doseing of it, is prolly what caused my issues.

What is the reason given for pulling the stimulate medication? Usually shrinks get all prissy with Adderal or Ritalin be abuse it can be abused easier. Vyvanse is timed delayed.

Do they think you dont have ADHD or is it medication cost?

It sucks when shrink play pill roulette.

my heart rate... but she wont listen to me, or accept documents from places that provide the proof that my heart is healthy, and its not the medicene causing a 110bpm, its the malnutritions and dehydration caused by crohns thats causing the heart rate elevated. and its been proven by when i had to be icu/cdu'd a few years ago, they had problems with getting an iv in because i was so badly dehydrated(and i had hypokalemia (low potassium in the blood) and the low magnessium in the blood(cant spell it, so im not even gonna try that one lol). but with many other overnight and week stays in the normal area of the hospital (a really bad crohns flare up time period), and they found out my bpm lowered as soon as i would get enough water through the iv(which got as high as 193bpm). but without the stimulant my bloodpressure drops severly low (70/50 ish while sitting up(lower while laying, and i never got up to stand when the bloodpressure machiene alarms went off(they wouldnt let me stand, even though i wanted to try, lol out of) curiousity to how much it changes with your position) and my bpm then climbs to try to pump more blood in attempts to raise my blood pressure. just like your heart will speed up if you hold your breath, before it will slow down.

Who is the person or persons who pulled the meds? Who is the person or persons who say it's not the meds causing the heart problem?

Can the people who know it's not the meds prescribe the same meds that have been discontinued?

Can they write a letter to the person who DOES prescribe the meds, telling them it's not the meds causing the heart problem and that you're being damaged by having the meds discontinued?

psych nurse practitioner is the one that pulled me off of the med. there has been numerous (too many to remember them all) ekgs and stress tests. but i know where the last few have been, only problem is the pnurse doesnt want what was done in the past(even tho the latest one was just in january of this year), she wants a new one done (and shes still not done the order for one yet..

no, not since she discontinued it. the latest place was an inpatient mental hospital (because i got cold turkeyed all at the same time off of vyvanse(almost instant withdrawl), viibryd(instant withdrawls which turn into serious problems (sezures, fainting, etc.)), lamictal(didnt notice anything from withdrawl from that), and seraquil(about 1 day after last dose withdrawls started)), and that wasnt by choice either. (i had a casemanger at that time who held my meds and wouldnt let me have them). but the ER here will refill meds, but if its been discountinued they wont represcribe it(especially vyvanse which is a "controlled substance")

im not even managing now... i mean im in my appartment, and i take care of my two cats, but thats it... i can breathe, and live.. but not do anything besides that, and small periods throughout the day when im clear (brain wise) enough to do anything. if any responsiblities were to come up(needing to pay bills or check mail or things) im almost certain it would be a complete shutdown within my system and coping mechanisms... i even tried to call someone to see if i could get set up in with therapy and a pdoc in a new place, but i couldnt get any words out. so i tried to call someone i usually have been able to speak with since i was about 8 or so, and nothing would come out again... its hard to explain... but its kinda like a ill feeling or severely drained kind of feeling.. ... i dont really know how to explain it....