The rollercoaster

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I find myself at the bottom of the rollercoaster ride and hopefully coming out of it and on the way up. Its a sense of huge emotional release but at the same time it doesn't take much to set me off on the downward spiral again. I realise these cycles of emotional highs and lows are not necessarily Aspergers but whatever they are caused by, I really worry about the dark place they can take me. I'm certainly not the suicidal sort, but I'm liable to spin out and resign from my job, do something that gets me fired, and so on.

As I said, its not necessarily a purely Aspergers thing, but these extremes of emotion are certainly caused by social anxiety and stress. No doubts about that. Why am I telling the world about this? Its cathartic mainly; a way to get it out of my system without fear of a response that might cause me further social anxiety. The thing I have not managed to work out is how to stop the rollercoaster. I've tried changing jobs, moving geographically, becoming insular and anti-social, tried substance abuse (nothing too serious), alcohol abuse. Whatever I do, I can't get off the rollercoaster.

I get like this too. Like you said it's mainly caused by anxiety and stress. I don't know how you stop it either

I have developed what I call 'psychological brake pads' but there is always a negative side of that. It affects the personality because the amount of time spent managing the roller coaster detracts from the joy of life.