Meltdown over Lost Keys
I came extremely close to having a meltdown a couple hours ago. I'm still trying to calm myself down after it which is hard because I'm currently at work. I have a job running deliveries for a small local pharmacy. They provide a van for me to drive around that I'm insured on.
Well, today before work I couldn't find the keys for the van. Still haven't found them. I'm actually driving my own car to do the deliveries today despite the fact I shouldn't due to liability reasons.
I got myself absolutely stressed out trying to hunt down those keys before in the half hour before work. I have a terrible habit of losing/misplacing things and spending hours looking for them. I become angry at myself for my inability to remember where I put such things and completely freak out over the loss of control I feel.
Earlier, just before work I was so upset and disgusted with myself that I was physically shaking as I was struggling to keep from completely exploding. I thank God that nobody said anything to me as I prepared my deliveries and left the store. I'm afraid I would have unloaded on them even if it was as simple as, "Hi, how are you today?" I was prepared to say, "DON'T!! ...talk to me right now! Just let me get this done so I can get out of here!"
The whole thing seems so stupid right now though. To get so worked up over something so small. Anyone else experience things like this? Does having to surrender control of a situation, no matter how minor, cause you to flip out into 'rage mode?'
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Yes, not having any control over a situation I feel I should have control over can be a trigger for me. Sorry about the key - Is there any way you can get a spare of the key, or have a duplicate made? Hope it turns up soon.
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I get absolutely furious when I loose things. I try to make sure I know where everything is, its usually narrowed down to a couple of places. I used to loose things all the time when I was young, and I used to get into huge trouble for loosing things, so that's probably why I get so angry about it now. I lost my keys a while ago now, I couldn't believe it at first as they always go in a particular pocket or in the basket on the kitchen bench. The feeling was horrible. After a meltdown of sorts I did find them, I had two sets of keys in the one pocket and they got tangled and one set dropped on the ground. I completely lost in one time when I lost my boots, witnesses couldn't believe the rage I was in.
My wife has this amazingly frustrating habit of putting things away where they don't go, just to clear the surface. I often doesn't occur to me to ask her if she's seen what I'm looking for because I always know where everything is!!
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I can't resist telling you about the time I lost my keys. I was digging around in my huge purse and found keys but not the right ones. My dog was watching. Finally I held up the wrong keys and said to the dog, "Where's these ones?" He turned and I had to run to keep up. He went to my bedside table and pointed with his nose and turned away quickly. And there were the keys I'd been looking for.
Well, I can't suggest that as a remedy but I love telling that story.
Could you get a key holder that answers when you whistle? There are lots of gadgets for finding stuff that gets lost.
Personally, I like putting everything on a brightly coloured lanyard, which has its own place to be, and the most important thing is never take the lanyard off without putting it in its proper place.
I wonder if you google helps for the blind, would you get stuff that's useful. I'll do that too.
p.s. the dog was a poodle.
I am forever losing my keys, my support workers are talking about getting me a key finder because we've spent a good half an hour looking for them before with me getting increasingly distressed.
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'For your own good' is a persuasive argument that will eventually make a man agree to his own destruction- Janet Frame
This use to happen to me all the time and it did make me have meltdowns. Especially the time when I locked them in the house. I had to climb through a window in order to get them. Now I try to put them in the exact same spot ever time. Every now and then I forget to do this and I completely begin to panic. Because I'm unorganized this happens with many items. Sometimes I end up buying more because I lost it. I probably have two or three of some items. Such as, batteries, flashlights, rubber bands, nail clippers, remote controls, scissors.
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