Hi. I'm a teenage girl who was diagnosed with Asperger's at ten years old, just before I entered middle school. I'm told that they were trying to get me special help, and with my "high-functioning" mannerisms, I now wonder if that was a hasty and inaccurate diagnosis.
I have severe tics/stimming that I think is a symptom. Other than that, I can enjoy socialization about a topic that interests me or with my friends. I know how to nonverbally express myself naturally, and my own psychologist was shocked when she found out about my diagnosis. I like hugs, can tolerate loud noises and crowds for a while, and usually make appropriate eye contact with adults and my friends.
But I have some issues and traits. Among peers, I do not usually emote or raise my voice. I do not look them in the eye and prefer to be alone. But I think this could be anxiety. I am more comfortable and expressive among strangers I trust. I have always cycled through "obsessions", although they tend to be more fiction, (most recently, my own), than fact. I have often said things I thought would be acceptable, but turn out to be confusing and weird. And I have trouble knowing what to say and not to say in social situations, such as telling my mother dirty jokes and questioning my sexuality loudly in public. I also sometimes dance slightly provocatively. I'm laughing too, but it doesn't occur to me not to at that point. This has cost me social acceptance. I was friendless in kindergarten and second, third, fifth, sixth, and seventh grades. My other friends lasted little more than a few months. My peers mock and exclude me. I have one good friend now, although I find her lewd and immature. But that might be irrelevant, just noting that I can't find anyone other than her. I also hate thumping, yawning, and sighing, and can hear a lot of it. I used to have an acute sense of smell.
I also understand sarcasm, more than other kids my age did, because my mother is a blatantly sarcastic person who explained it to me. I usually understand implications and can make them and expect others to get them. However, character motives remain unnaturally elusive to me, which my mother thinks could be a symptom of ASD. I also get confused with non-literal meanings slightly more than my peers, but not seriously so. My mother recently told me that I take literature "too literally".
My mother thinks my routine is "no routine". What does this mean? I have habits, my door must always be shut and the lights always off if I am inside. I must always have music on before I surf the net, and I must always have an off number of tabs open. Or is this OCD?
My AQ score is 33, and my Aspie quiz score is ND: 152 and NT: 64, by the way.
30 Sep 2014, 5:33 pm
