Well this is a hell of a story.
I did lots of research and also done some EFT and now I have some very basic have of mind of sorts! for the first time in my life and I'm 31. I don't know whether I'm emulating it with other parts of my mind or I just got healed! (possibly the first)
I personally believe that people with AS or other PDD (I'm possibly the later) can make progresses during their adult lifes out of the blue. I read somewhere that this is the case with AS as they can go on making progress in their adult life and their developement may just be slower or deleyed, but goes on in the adulthood.
So here is my story. I sort of suddenly realized that I can find out how other people may think or feel or react to a certain subject, by going through their life and study them and sort of emulating them.
example: I like metaphysics and spirituality and I'm actually a bit superstitious, and normally I would tell about these to my pdoc if he asked me what subjects I'm interested in right now. Now I just don't tell him because: I know he would think I'm schizotypal or otherwise not that sane. So how do I know it? I just imagine his life (belive me this is simpler than it sounds): he possibly has been totally the carrierist at school to actually get the grades to get into the medical school (hard to get in there in Germany) so he probebly hasn't done anything but learning. and then in medical school he also has done just that (because when you go to medical school you have no time to do anything else because it's so hard). So this guy has learned anything about people being crazy and has no Idea about spirituality and stuff. So probably if I tell him something about spirituality he hasn't the knowledge to process it, but he has A LOT of knowledge in psychiatry so he probably is going to try to analyze my words with the tools he has (psychiatry). and he is going to tell me I'm superstitious or something, which is not true, but based on his limited experience in the field and his strong beliefes in psychiatry.
What I learned from doing this:
1. other people may have opinions other than mine, AND BOTH mine and their are valid. mine is valid for me and theirs is valid for them and there is absolutely no reason to fight about it. They can't have my opinion because they ARE NOT ME. They are OTHER PEOPLE. So I basically realized that people other than me exist and they may think differently about stuff, and you can't blame them because they have had different lifes/genes.
2. It's a good idea to think about someone might be feeling. like NOW if my sister is sick or has her period or something I won't be talking to her about the Agnus chip of the Amiga 500 and all it's greatness, because sick people are pissed off easily. So basically people may FEEL DIFFERENT THAN ME. (seriously I didn't know this)
You basically need to realize that other people are OTHER PEOPLE.
The funny part:
I told my father at the phone that I now know this stuff and can somewhat tell how people may react and think and such:
his response:
Do you now have SUPERPOWERS or something? and he was being serious.
Now I know where I have my AS or PDD or whatever from...... (from my dad apparently)
cheerz
omid
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Aspie score: 131 of 200
NT score: 34 of 200
Possibly Aspie (diagnosed by an autism expert, doc moves abroad, forced to change docs and all say it's schizophrenia NOS or schizo-affective disorde or personality disorders. initial doc was a colleague of uncle Simon btw. you do the math.). (edit: by Uncle Simon I mean Simon Baron Cohen. Just to clear things up.)
14 Oct 2014, 6:34 am
