What do you do when a massive shutdown/meltdown is imminent

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Do you ever have a day that is so jam-packed with stress and BS that you feel a meltdown or shutdown is practically unavoidable. Today was the all-time winner for one sh***y thing after another. First I had to endure the grueling pain of a molar root canal which I totally felt in spite of freezing, then with my mouth all frozen and talking like someone who had a stroke, I discover that I cannot reach my husband to pick me up, because he had left his phone on silent. Fed up, furious in the beating hot Jamaica sun with my long, black pants on to boot, I decide to walk to the city's bus park, which is located in a real sketchy area where people are always trying to hustle and swindle you. Had to wait in the heat for an available cab, and finally arrive home. Only to later have our tiny apartment invaded by my husband's two kids. I work from home and cannot concentrate at all, and I have to get work done since we have more expenses right now than ever before and I have no choice. The kids will be here until they go to school Monday and we just don't have money for extra food right now so I can feel the stress coming on me like tidal waves. My husband just leaves to get some work done and tomorrow works all day, so this means I am stuck here with them, and I mean stuck, it isn't safe to walk here and I don't drive here so I really am trapped. I suspect me and the vodka will be real good friends this weekend. I love my husband but lately he has been doing a lot of really frustrating things to push all my buttons and it makes me feel like I will go insane soon if something doesn't change, he cannot manage money or time to save his life and I feel like the only adult and that everything falls on me. I still have so much I have to pay to complete my dental work too, I was just lucky to find a dentist that is somewhat reasonable and accepts payment in installments, still it is very costly and I just couldn't bring myself to have my tooth pulled for fear of looking like a jack o lantern and having to eat mush. Do you ever have what seems like mountains of stress on you all at one time, a sort of "shit-storm" where you wish you could just get "beamed up" from to escape?

Yes, the universe just seems to take a dump on me at random times. You'll get through this. Stay in the moment, deep breaths, this too shall pass.

I understand about not having a very responsible domestic partner too.... my kitchen's pile of dishes is testament to it as of now.

I'm just trying to make the best of it, by actually trying to have conversations with these kids who are adolescents at least. The financial stress will continue to haunt me undoubtedly, especially if I can't work since it is hard for me to concentrate when I have distraction. My husband knows I have AS and accepts me as I am but just doesn't get it sometimes by inadvertently heaping additional stress on me.