Body dysmophic disorder

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A few years ago I was convinced I was socially isolated because of my appearance. I didn't realize that I was the one gradually isolating myself from others. I wasted so much time scrutinizing my features in the mirror and applying makeup to conceal my flaws. Does anyone else here have body dysmorphic disorder or suspect they have it.

I used to pick at zits - untill i realised it made it worse.

then i tried to mask my monobrow but that made it worse, then my nose hair......

my very first problem was my ears where i would tape them down at night - of course to no avail.. so i gave up

then i started choofing (marijuanna slang) that stopped all of it.

then i stopped choofing

I strted using cremes and such (i'm male)... but then realised i look like a poof with smooth skin so i stopped again.

now i have an obsesion with my fallace - but i think every male does.

I feel I have body dysmorphic disorder. I consider myself less attractive than objectively I am. If my mood is high and I look into a mirror I feel I look ok. But when I'm down I usually think what an ugly slob.

I think I do.Now I really am old and ugly but when I look at pictures from my twenties and even thirties,I think I looked pretty good,not super model but not "deformed" which I always saw in the mirror.I could never figure out how I could attract such attractive mates and never thought they would stay with me or could really love me.My insecuritiy used to drive my boyfriends nuts.

I remember when I was in third grade,refusing to wear shorts all summer because I thought my legs were to fat.I was sure the kids at school were going to make fun of me for being fat and used to "practice" come back lines for when they insulted me....but they never did,because I wasnt really fat.I was about 110(at 5'3')until I was around thirty and didnt really think I was fat,but wouldnt wear jeans because I thought they made my legs "look" fat.I also couldnt stand the "feeling" of having any fat on my stomach...it just irritated me.

I feel exactly the same -- I feel like - who the hell would ever want me.... but guess what - chicks LOVE me,, aparently I am hot hot hot?
-I don't get it - you see some people which just know that they are hot, and exploit it... but then their is Paris Hilton -- which I believe to be an ASppie, with her obsesion being social engineering. ,, when I actually realised I was HOT and every girl I ever knew wanted me (actually stated as fact by an older girl that all the young girls talked about how they wanted me to just pick them up an rape them) at the age of 15 ... I was still shy, so slowly I started to realise, these girls ARE looking at me with lust.. I started to develop a real habit about my flirting reactions to thier stares... Now today I am an Afficianado Paris Hilton myself.

-I still don't see it though - I don't brush my hair - hate the tast of tooth paste, I smoke so I have yellow teeth , I have put on weight ---I don't get it... I'm ugly!

Yep. Not sure how to quit even though I know it´s just in my head.