Silly things you felt anxiety about?

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What is the silliest thing you have had anxiety over and dare to admit to?

The other day I was contemplating our existence and the universe. I had developed my own theory of perpetual reincarnation of our consciousness based on the idea of pantheism and I was at peace over it. No worries about the afterlife because I got it all figured out in my mind. I then reached issue with the heat death of the universe trillions years from now and I couldn't resolve it in my mind. I freaked out over the thought of my consciousness being stuck in perpetual freeze and I almost had a full blown anxiety attack about it. Yes, I freaked out about something that "might" happen trillions and trillions years from now.

Pretty much everything to be honest.

I worry about every little thing in life, mostly because I used to be a really bad hypochondriac.

Being gay.

The more people that know, the more I realize that, in general, no one cares & I can relax about it.

Due to the homophobic legal scenario still playing out that I posted about in the LGBT forum, I'm still guarded about it at work, but bit by bit I'm more comfortably out in all areas of my life and like the cliche says "It gets better." So much better! Eventually I'll be very comfortably out to all 100% of the time in all areas of my life and just won't care what others think or how they react - that will be complete freedom from anxiety about it.

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

reading official mail....i literally get panic attacks...

reading official mail....i literally get panic attacks...

What if the bus is too packed and I have to stand up?

What if I get diarrhoea when I go on holiday with my boyfriend?

What if teenagers laugh at me when I next go to the shopping centre?

What if people start deleting me off Facebook?

There's more but I can't think of any more at the moment.

What if I was deliberately excluded from that social event?

What will happen if I leave another social event early?

Will people notice?

Will they talk about me behind my back?

What if people don't like me?

Phone calls.

Even though I work in a fairly high stress healthcare job and am capable of engaging in social chit-chat with a stranger in a bar - If I have something out of the ordinary but of a routine nature like reregistering my car for another year - I will toss and turn about it all night even though it is a simple matter that doesn't take much time.

Posting on forums

Since this semester i'm going to my classroom 50 minutes before it starts to always sit on my place there. Sometimes this happen:
"Oh my God, it's already 47 minutes for my lessons to start, i'm sure someone is taking advantage of my delay to sit on my spot!"
Then i run to my classroom and discover that no one is there yet lol

Walking down the street, see familiar people and start having an anxiety attack while i think of what to say/what to do when i pass through them, imagine if they will notice me if i walk too fast looking to the other side or what i could possibly do to avoid them.
Sometimes i think if it would be easier to just pass and say "hi".

There are so many other things. Even waiting to enter the elevator on the building i work at can be a stressful situations some days.

This is from when I was maybe 10 years old. I loved my bedroom. I felt like it was my haven, my sanctuary from the other members of a largish and active family. I had all my little knick knacks and toys arranged nicely.

The weird thing about my room was it was apparently the only good place to have the large copper boiler/hot water heater that served the radiator system of the house. When we updated our heating system, we had to change the pipes to the water heater too; I don't think they put in whole new one, but for some reason just the pipes, and some new lagging for insulation.

Well, obviously this had to be done in my room! I was freaked OUT! My mum had to break the news to me as if a pet had died.
And when the man came to carry out the work, I was so worried about my room that me and my mum sat there on the bed while the man did the work.

It was the sanctuary aspect that I felt was being violated -- I don't think I thought he was going to damage anything, I think my anxiety was more to do with a haven being invaded and my having no control over that, and also disruption to routine and my normal pattern of life. My space was being invaded and something new and disruptive was happening that I didn't have an option in.

I had massive anxiety, as if it were a serious dentist appointment for something major. I'm thankful that my mother kind of went with it, because I was fine just sitting there with her, managing to chat with my mum, and I think we started reading a book at one point. I had no meltdowns during the work, or anything, just acute anxiety, so all in all it went well.

But still, I look back now and cringe when I wonder what that poor man must have thought about this nervous little kid making her mother sit on her bed with her while they both watched this poor guy trying to do his work. It must have seemed very weird to him, and I'm sorry how bad it must have looked. Sometimes I wish I could find him and explain that little girl had autism and this was just one of her anxiety triggers. he probably wouldn't even remember! But I do and I still feel embarrassed.

I get anxious over things such as death, our house catching on fire... the world ending soon... stuff like that. D: I worry about a lot of silly things that probably won't ever happen. We are actually very careful about what we do when it comes to fire hazards, so I shouldn't have to worry about that stuff, but I do. D:

My worrying anxiety is actually pretty bad.

Another thing I forgot to mention is when places I frequent or use go under unexpected maintenance. This happened today when Nintendo decided to shut down the server for it. I was so pissed and almost wanted to scream because it took almost an hour for them to get it back up. >< It's stuff like that which can make my anxiety go over the line.

I've been waiting for Nov 1st for two months. They're finally airing Act 9 of Sailor Moon Crystal! I've even had nervous breakdowns because the day isn't here yet!! ! Thank goodness it's Wednesday the last week of October. I'll finally see it this weekend! You have no idea the relief I feel that it's almost here. Two more days!! !

Generally just when I know I will be around someone who zaps my energy very badly- someone who is all about drama (my fiancee's ex-wife) or someone who won't stop talking and tries to tell me their life story (my grandfather, who I only recently met.. back in May). Even just thinking about those things/ situations/ people makes me anxious and my heart starts to pound faster. Other than that.. not really. It also helps that I am unattached from a lot of things, too.

Having to go to the counter for anything at the Post Office, UPS or FedEx.

Going to the scrap yard to recycle cans. Using coin counting machines like CoinStar.